A letter from June 4th, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Coming from summer of freshman year, going into sophomore year to senior me. Hey isabella i hope you’re doing great and good and stable, i hope i have learned more about boys that i do not need them in life to be happy. My problem right now i’m sad about a senior lol. Okay enough about boys for now, i’m praying for a successful future for me and i really hope I’m happy while reading this and a good place in life. high school has been going by fast already going into my second year. My freshman year went through ups and downs, i went to a therapist for the first time and got put on lamotrigine, i was honestly at a low point in life where i depended on boys attention and did anything for a boy to stay in my life or got really sad and depressed when a boy left me for another girl. i probably have matured a lot more while reading this in about 3 years, and i’ll look back on my life now remembering when i wrote this, ha i’ve been crying all day about a senior boy matt lmao and just i don’t wanna look at my body because of what he has left on me. but fr i need to calm down about boys but i guess i’ll always secretly be like this because of my past from my childhood/dad. i don’t really remember a lot from my freshman year because i was mostly high off of cakes.. but i’ll for sure remember the time i got caught with my ‘friends’ i have gained and lost friends but everything happens for a reason. Anyways i don’t really know what to tell my future self but just i hope i got that bbl well no i just hope i’m happy with my body because i don’t need a perfect body for anyone i just want to be happy. i’ve learned boys mostly just talk to me for my body lol that probably has not changed. ohh and i hope i got chosen for best glow up for prom because let’s be honest i’ve came a long way in my looks.. and i’m sure i’m prettier while reading this later on. what i think is gonna be the hardest year in my high years is junior year idk you can be the judge on that. and don’t be late to graduation or prom or anything because i have been late so many times my freshman year😅 and i hope i have gotten rid of these mother ****** eye bags. and did i ever dye my hair red, because i’ve been planning on my junior year or senior year because i think it’ll make me look for mature. and are you still lying about your age to older guys🙄 well **** i thought i was gonna like make a really sad note to myself but idek what to say, i did get a little teary writing this but i think it’s just today because i’ve been crying all day. anyways i’ll probably write some more wise words to you later. but grind don’t stop. and no pain no gain. i always thought people who said that was cringe but i always be telling myself that at the gym. how was power lifting? did you like it? and how was volleyball did you stop playing? i’m pretty sure i did. Ugh i wanna cry while reading this later on but i have no idea what to tell you. Well i’m so proud of where you have came our life has been crazy a lot of ups and downs but you made it! you finally graduated, you are finally going to be free and do whatever you want, and you will get to look back on all the memories you have made with everyone in our story. i love you so much and i’m very very proud of you. now go drink and party so hard and take super cute pics with that diploma, wow i cant believe i will have a diploma in 3 years, i have grown up very fast, time goes by really fast, i’ll be reading this again by the time i know it. Here’s a quote i want myself to remember from my freshman year, “Life becomes more meaningful when you realize that you will never have the same moment twice”- some quote i saw in mrs esquivel’s room And here’s another quote i saw in mrs esquivel’s room "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." - Maya Angelou Those are quotes i saw in my 3rd period biology class. Oh also i wanna say my freshman year i squat- 185, i just wanna see how far i’ve came. Also for graduation pics keep your back straight, straighten up for pics, that’s what i’m trying to remember. Also i hope you got into whatever college you decided on, i was thinking about the island and then transfer farther if i want to or if i don’t like it. okay bye i love you and be careful man don’t get pregnant with the wrong guy or don’t marry the wrong guy. “goodnight everyone stay super freaky have great ****** i love ya”-queen nikki.