A letter from Jun 04, 2023

Sometimes I wonder, I wonder how I'm still living this life, how I'm still supporting all of this, what I am waiting for, where this hope Came From, sometimes I tell myself that I'm depressed yeah I am but you know sometimes I tell myself maybe this is the way I'm going to live all my life so is that it, is it really just about this, it's really not worth it , I just want to close my eyes picture myself somewhere, somewhere far away , far from home, far from everyone, somewhere where I know just myself, get lost on the streets and enjoy enjoy all this adventure, am I going to feel the same? Is it going to be fun to do this alone? Sometimes all I want is to be around my family to enjoy their company to be there just that feeling is enough for me I really miss miss them Miss home, I miss feeling that part of family that cares about me and I can feel that in each movement ,each look , each moment. I was just writing this but now I think I'm going to send it to the Future me. So hey dear future me, how's life? The most thing that I'm afraid of is to lose someone that I care about, to lose my family, to Lose Myself, you know I'm not included in the people I care about, other than that life is just normal whatever happened just going to be life, yes I'm not saying it's going to be comfortable, you may suffer, anyways Life Is Life, and Love Is Love, and we all just passing by. So let me talk about myself a little bit in here, the things important in my life right now are my family, me trying to take care of myself, me trying to get my s*** done, yeah I mean my studies, looking for opportunities abroad , and caring about my sister cuz she's Maybe going to continue her studies in bengrire , so it might be a challenge, about my relationships, we end it me and asmae , about dating I went to a date with a guy I've met online, he got attached to me just after one day but I've told him I'm no longer interested, he got upset, but that's it, I'm just not really yet to get in this type of relationships, so yeah, I'm so single so vergin , I'm proud of that lol . I think that's it, those were important things in my life right now, in my 22, they tell us twenties are the most beautiful years of your life, but here I am spending them in a boring way, cuz I'm broke ***** , that's it see you. Live it or leave it. HOPE IS A DANGEROUS THINGS FOR A WOMEN LIKE ME TO HAVE .