A letter from June 3rd, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Chapter 4****** Last night u came in my dream. You looked handsome as always. Even in dream when u made eye contact with me, I felt butterflies in my stomach, but at the same time a pain grew in my chest. That pain is so familiar with me now cuz everytime I see your photo that pain comes and attacks right through my chest. I hate u for doing this to me. I hate the way u look at me . I hate you for making me feel like this. I hate u for making me a nobody. You always think you're perfect, you have perfect friends in which my best friend is also your friend. You guys all hangout together but never invite me neither my best friend thinks like that. I know my best friend very well. She will always choose quantity over quality in friendship bcoz she loves to be loved by people around her. I know she will choose your perfect , rich , friends forever group over me and u know I'm okay with that. I don't expect people to be with me forever. I mean who would want to spend life with an ugly , not so friendly open minded person . Anyone would choose you and your group over me . I hate u bcoz you hurt my best friend but at the same time I like it that she is going through this . I hate u bcoz you are the reason for the fights between me and my best friend ; it's always been u . Even though you are not around me ,you are a part of my life . I heard from apoorva that you are trying to move on from someone , I bet it must feel good to not have someone whom u like . When I heard this I was so happy bcoz u really deserve this . You didn't broke one girl's heart but also came in between my friendship with my best friend. I don't know if I could ever move on from u but I really hope u are living miserably perfect life and still u complaint others about your family problems. I don't understand when your family buys u an iPhone, takes u along to travel Dubai , you still complaint them . Dude they are not the problem , you are the problem. They do so much for u but .......... I really want to Hate u but I can't........ The pain is ******* me inside but guess what neither you care about me nor my pain ..... Just get out of my brain and my life I beg uuuu .....    ........      ........