A letter from June 3rd, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Chapter 2 ***** I've been so much busy with studies that I can't even watch kdramas. So I've decided to write diary only one time in a week. This week was super hectic and my sister yesterday told me that she broke up with her aesthetic bf. This news not at all surprised me cuz I had predicted this a long time ago. U know me and my sister are very different. She loves to be loved and I run away from love. I don't even believe in love, I only think that after some time people get bored with each other and only together bcoz to continue the bond they made. I personally think that I don't want to be loved bcoz everytime I see boys I only think of him. Like in mall I only tend to search him even though I know that he won't be there but still I don't know I life my hopes up. Why does he come on my dreams, why in those dreams flirts with me, why he kisses me, why he says that I will be with u forever...... This questions make my mind go crazy. I don't know if I like him or I am obsessed with him. It's been around 4 months I haven't seen him,last time I saw him my eyes couldn't leave his sight. He still had those gaze which made butterflies in my stomach. That's it for today