A letter from May 31st, 2023

Dear FutureMe, chapter 1 - My first diary entry - Ok so it's my first writing a diary which is not really writing but typing. I will be writing about my  life incidents but mostly about 'the guy'. I'm gonna first start when all the ******** things started in my life. I don't think specifically remember when it started but I have so many heartbreaking incidents in my life which can make me cry again if I try to remember those incidents. Let's talk about him only 'the guy'. When I first saw him it was hate at first sight: a real hatred like if I had a knife with me at that time I would had stabbed him right through his heart. You all must be wondering why am I saying these stuffs to my first love and so so but he was so ******* cruel and harsh....... cough cough harsh!!!! He said some harsh words in front of me which went right through my chest. He said about me to my art teacher that why do you give these work to these people. I know it doesn't sound so heartbreaking but he said in hindi,let me say those exact words- Kaise kaise logo ko aap yeh kaam dete ho!!! Do u guys get it now🙃🙃🙃 I don't know why he said those words to me like dude you don't even know me how could u say someone this bad who hasn't even did bad to u. And I hated him for the rest of my school life Or was I pretending to hate him?🤔🤔 Ig that's it for today. **** I'm feeling like crying but it doesn't really matter now as this is not the first time I cried bcoz of him. Gumd night my future self kukii🙃🙃.