A letter from May 30, 2023

6/01/2021 I just can't contain the pain that is bursting within my heart, because what would you feel if those people that are significant to your life, wronged you? What if those people that you keep on giving trust and chances, broke it again? And what if the closest person you have, broke the trust that you gave to her? What should I do now? What would my heart feel after everything that they had done? How should I trust other people again? Dear Lord, Last year I lost my brother, and my heart still aching about him right now, last year some certain people judge me and I questioned my value because of what they did Lord. Last year I’ve been holding on to the person whom I taught I could bless his life by staying and imparting them about your Word, but he wasted the trust and efforts that I did. Lord, this year I lost two people that are closed to my soul, they've wronged me and I thought that at least you could change the situation, but you didn't and I thought that you are just changing my heart. Maybe my heart is aching and crying right now Lord but taught my mind not to take vengeance, create me a clean heart Lord… and this is what I'm praying right now Father. May I have a forgiving and compassionate heart like yours Father God? May I learn to calm myself despite the chaos and confusions of this world, may you hold my hand and take me to your embrace forever Abba, Amen.