A letter from May 27, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hi jaky!! Its me freshman year tons of things has been going on lately and its May 27,2023. Summer is about to start but we still have one more week of school so its been pretty crazy, Im pretty sure my passwords are the usual you know. I wanna ask myself some serious questions, am I actually happy like do I enjoy doing what I want or do I fall apart and let people walk over me, maybe Im probably dead by that time or maybe alive life cant be certain. Do I have a boyfriend? Or had one? How was he like? I dont believe in love and probably wont ever since Ive never had a real boyfriend lmaoo its lowkey sad but its the truth, is honey still alive? ): If she isnt im sorry for your loss and if she is then thank god she is I love her so much I dont think I can do it without her. Is my mom and my dad and everyone from my family okay? Are they alive? Are they dead? Who died? Im so scared of anyone dying cause its crazy since polly died this year. Really insane **** you know. Does sherlyn finally have a right man? How did my quince go? Do you have a job? Whos your friends now? My friends right now is Madrid, Isabella, Autumn. Selle, Desirae, michelle I guess, Danny I guess and liz, I fell apart with natalie so I'll probably never see her again. Is life so much better now? I dont really like how I am but I still have to get used to it. Ive been reading so much weebtoons like till debt do us part and everything. Oh my god is skip and loafer completed?? That would be insane but I dont think so unless its true. Did the fnaf movie already come out?? How was it?? Who did you go with?? Did I finally get out of my ponytail phase, do I have better friends as in friends that make me laugh and everything. Do I lose at least a little weight I know Ive been asking that forever but I probably wont since Ive always asked my future self and my future self never even loses weight lmaooo. I mean theres really not much to tell you ): I feel lost and lonely I even started picking up smoking but thats nothing really. I feel lost I feel like im the only one that can help myself and pick myself up from the floor that everyone pushed me on. I used to depend on people and mostly natalie, cant believe she betrayed me, past me wouldve gone federal but yeah I feel like I need to learn about myself and everything, I still sometimes miss matt but not as much as before he was a nice man but with no good intentions. Im still lost in every way I go I feel lost and scared to try new things, I never seem to be happy about some stuff that I wanna get involved on, for example I get sensitive when people start being weird as in they start acting cold or give me looks I dont know but its a really weird feeling. I wish I never felt so weak and sensitive whenever that happens, also did I ever go to a beach trip? With who? But going back I feel mostly betrayed by everyone and yes I infact did feel like I got left behind but its a good thing I did cause I dont wanna reach to them, instead I'll reach to the people that wanna help me and go with the flow with me that wanna learn new things that wanna I dont know its all in my imagination lol also did we move houses? I know were gonna have to move soon but **** thats really sad ): i feel really sad thinking about the future as In Im scared of myself. I dont ever wanna be an adult I wanna be a kid I wanna be able to use my heart I dont wanna care about feelings I just wanna live. Do I ever even dye my hair? I dont even know anymore I wish I could tell you how much I hate that I have to grow up. But to be honest 2023 was nicer to me than I thought, I cried too much in 2022 but now I walked to the path I wanted to go to. I always wanna follow people but thats not right anymore it never felt right I always decided to let people walk all over me but now I get up and leave now I dont wanna deal with their ********. I love the me but I wish I can improve to something even better. I hope you find happiness, if you dont just know that old you was happy for a while or keep going whichever is fine🫶🏽I love you, I love my family i love honey scooby paloma yenny(manzana) coco and wero (: also are you still obsessed with tv girl? Thats funny I wonder if you ever go to a concert or at least a tv girl concert, I was so close going to the tv girl concert with selle but we couldnt go cause her mom is gonna have a new born ): but thats okay maybe next time. I wonder if your not obsessed with radio by lana del ray or overslept by faye webster, im honestly curious what songs im gonna be addicted to when im a senior. I wonder if Im still gonna have old habits within me imagine lollll do I ever even wear makeup Im hella curious. Do I ever even I dont even know theres so much to ask myself but I'll go and do letters every year as in when im a sophomore or junior and then senior (,: thats pretty scary. I wonder if I will ever be a happy girl if I find a man or a best friend that wont ever be annoyed about me. I wonder but wondering doesnt do anything. Anyways, love you jaky, future me infact Stay happy and if your sad then go watch some shoujo look some I recommend you for memories, kamisama kiss, kimi ni todoke, buisness proposal, lvl 999 yamada, skip to loafer, till debt do us part, operation true love, my reason to die, serena, muse on fame, trapped, the remarried princess, and more I love you and please take care of yourself if you want, or dont. Make sure to have an amazzingnggg summaaaa(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ Make sure to tell your loved ones I love you as well silly◕3◕ Please be happy and have a boyfriend o(╥﹏╥)o Love you mami, love you papi, love you honey, I love everyone (╯︵╰,)