A letter from May 26, 2023

hi briana, i hope nothing much has changed. im actually scared of change and thinking about it right now seems so sudden and terrifying. right now i finished my freshman year of highschool. the year was not easy whats so ever with stupid drama and just so much like hurt. the hurt is gone and i hope it will forever stay gone. my mom is living in new york right now and i'm hoping by the time i get this im living with her. hopefully i have a job, an associates degree, healthy relationship with family but also anthony. i hope he stays. i love him allot, like so much. i know that i tend to forget how much i loved people after i move on but i don't want to forget how i love him. i really hope you two are together. i have dreams and goals besides him but just maybe (not maybe, it's for sure) that i really want to do it with him. god forbid you have another lover i might just punch you. if you do i doubt they're better than anthony. i hope you're happy, im happy now. finally after so much stuff but happiness fluctuates. i hope my feeling of stability stays because i cannot handle change. maybe nathan is still your friend and their possee of liam and sebastian are still together. by then i hope to have an amazing girl best friend and be life long platonic soulmates with her. maybe mommy gets a new boyfriend. i pray he is good, more than good i pray that he is amazing. maybe she will get married and maybe another sibling. i want to be a coroner when i grow up and live in new york but move to colorado later on, have 3 kids maybe four and just be really happy. i really hope you're happy.