A letter from May 25, 2023

Dear FutureMe, you're 18. i'm 15. 3 whole years of difference. 3 whole years of crazy things to happen! i've just sent another one of these for 16 and 17 year old me HAHA! go read those for a reminder of me right now! and of what i hoped for you. wow you must be thinking about colleges already! jobs, relationships, your whole future life. it's all right in front of you and so close. that's... insane. nigel is going through his junior year, right? be kind to him! support him well: that's a hard year, as you know! god i haven't even been through it and you already have had been through it. that's insane to me. he's one of the only ones i really know will be there with you after 3 years. he's family. everyone else feels so... temporary. i have so so many friends. but i dont really have a best friend. i hope you have good, close relationships by the time you're 18. 18. you're a whole *** ADULT. wow. i can't fathom who you are, but i hope you're me in all the good ways. i hope you're the opposite of me in all my flaws. i hope that you're the perfect version of yourself after these 3 years. you can only improve! sure it seems like you're devolving at times, but in the long run. i can promise you. you're doing great. i hope you're health is great! mental and physical. i think you're beautiful. i know you will be by the time ur 18. senior year of high school. haha freshmen must seem like babies. dont be mean!! im a freshman :( they're scared too yknow. i hope you've become such a fun person. a popular and sociable person. a senior friend for all grades! i hope you've taken leadership roles recently. that'd be amazing for who you were a couple years ago. ugh when i was 13 i was terrible. but im doing better. and i believe you are doing better too. what are you're plans for your 18th birthday? wow i can't imagine. all my birthdays so far have been by myself like a normal day. actually this year was nice. i had many friends and gifts! and we went out to dinner with mom, dad, and nigel. oh im just remembering the time we drove home from hanbyul's house and i cried from laughing. i hope you've had. so many moments. like that. i truly, truly love them. who are the people in your life? what are your hobbies/free time activities? what is your everyday life like? what are the random little things you love? are you happy? are you scared for your future? i sure am. i'm scared as ****. like actually. i don't know who i'm gonna be. and i have to improve so much of myself. hopefully you can look back and sigh. and pat old you on the back and reassure me that you've got it all figured out. listen to what dad says. he knows a lot for the success of you. be fearless. don't be scared for your future, making friends, or doing anything. be fearless and strong. and kind. and gentle. wow i wonder who the special one in ur life is hehe. do you still want to have children early? to give dad grandchildren as early as possible? do you even want to be a parent? i think i do but i also have no idea. i want to but only really because i feel like that's what you're supposed to do. it's 11:11 pm haha. making a wish. for you. everything from here on out is gonna be rough. ur gonna have hard times that i cannot fathom the pain of. you're gonna hit forks in the road. but i believe in you. reach out for help! and help others. you're gonna do amazing. happy birthday nora.