A letter from May 25, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I’m writing you at probably one of the lowest points in our life.. we achieved so little across the last years but I guess it’s still better than nothing We’ve had so many intense experiences Met hundreds of people on all parts of the spectrum of good and bad.. heart got broken 2000 times and then some.. and in a life that’s been full of adversity and turmoil, each rime you’ve come up on top.. maybe not victorious but a survivor.. as in some wars even if we don’t win we still need to survive And the one thing we’ve always counted on, is ourself.. in the darkest of times I knew it is only me who can get us out of it.. it is only me who can pick us up and dust us off to fight yet another day.. and it is why am calling this the lowest point of our life, is because out of all the losses we had to endure, but survived, it is this loss that is unbearable and fatal.. losing oneself.. the one person I rely on is failing me.. I no longer have the energy to fight, to try, to fail, to rise, or even to succeed.. drained to the last bit Writing to you while exhausted to the core.. hoping that if I can anything, is to get myself back.. to have my strength again.. to have a recharge and feel anew again.. as such there was plenty yo suffer there is yet much more that needs strength yo beat.. the battle is not over and new fronts will open soon.. and you my weary soldier have been beaten and wounded waving your white flag of surrender.. longing for the day they call a ceasefire… I wish you will find something or someone to recharge you, to reignite that fire that lied deep within you.. so than you can at least, go on.. 😔 I pray with all my heart that when you read this you will be doing so much better than you are now.. that this will indeed be the lowest point and it won’t go any lower, that it will only be one dark chapter followed by recovery, joy, and healing… Throughout everything you kept on a journey of self improvement, and while things and circumstances around you kept getting worse, you kept getting better as a person, despite being tired to the bones you continued to be the envy of everyone, for the way you carry yourself, for the grace and compassionate with which you embrace everyone.. and for that at least we should be proud.. Love you always.. and praying for you for relief sooner than you expect