A letter from May 24th, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hope you have finally chosen a career to pursue. I believe you've finally got a bike to ride downtown. I hope that you've finally moved on from J and made peace with your past. If you didn't, it's fine. I couldn't either. Because she is one in a million, a shooting star which we could never get hold of. It's fine actually. The present me plans to live life like 96 ram, travelling around the country, exploring nature and wildlife. After multiple professions, I've settled down in a design company as a Design engineer. I still have doubts about engineering as a career. I've always wanted to be a government official, but chances look dim now. I've become obese again. My appearance has changed, I'm trying to get fit but this time, I'm literally struggling to lose some pounds. I've started to distance myself from my family, I'm planning to move out and cut all ties in the near future. I still haven't got any luck in relationships, besides I still can't fix myself on one woman, After I developed feelings for J and got hurt, my heart doesn't feel much for others like it did for J. The thing is I get attracted to women, even to an extent where one could easily argue it to be love, but it isn't to the level I had with J. My heart skips a beat whenever J crosses. It's been three years since I saw her, The worst is the fact that her boyfriend is my colleague now. We don't talk much, I don't have hard feelings but cannot establish a good rapport either. See, I love women you know, in all ages. For me, age is a negligible factor in love. I admire them, I've even fallen for some. But deep in my heart, I know that I've never fallen so hard for someone like J. Since I instantly feel this, I refrain from making a move. I don't know what to do for now. Maybe my heart can move on in the future, maybe not. Let's wait and watch. I hope my future self has finally moved on from J and started a new life, with a lucrative career.