A letter from May 19, 2023

Dear Future me, I wanted to know how you're doing now as a senior in high school, you're finally at the endpoint of school, starting a new chapter to college. Yes, I did so read your letter on Forceteller, telling me to never feel discouraged by failure, even if the feeling is painful, even if things never come to expectations, even if there were the worst times. Seeing you telling me that you're doing "fantastic," I somewhat believed you for that, I wanted to feel inspired by you, who is from the future, who is far stronger than I am, who doubted overwhelmingly myself. (If you still use Forceteller, you know what I mean) If you did so tell me that you're doing "fantastic," did you actually achieved what you wanted? Good grades? Apply to college you wished to go? You finally decided what to do now? Did you join any clubs or activities that is a lot more fun? Someone like the both of us can't stand being bored 24/7, knowing that you and I wanted to do something fun after all. Well maybe before you started days of college, rather than mentally preparing for it, make most of everything, rather than being in your room just playing games or drawing (as always, but I'm telling you not all of the time!!) What is exactly "you", "you" wanted to do? Knowing that you have been gatekeeping a bucket list all of the time, why not fulfill most of it? For "you" who have made it so far, I just hope you're doing alright on the inside and outside. It's entirely a warzone, facing what's beyond your grasp. The hardest time you could go through without time to heal yourself, as what I said. This time should be the time you heal yourself, knowing the pain is surreal, you need time to recover, rest for a while. You truly deserved all of the pain and hard work you do. From - Past, You P.S. Yesterday (May 18, 2023) I got ocular migraine, it was painful that I couldn't continue writing this, I had to heal myself from that. So, it's been two days of writing this. I'm doing fine now, still had a headache, which is pretty annoying.