A letter from May 16, 2023

Hello future me!! It is past you typing, currently procrastinating uni work by typing this (typical). I hope this isn't another school email incident and I don't lose the email I'm sending this email to, because I'm still upset I didn't think to back up the past emails and now they're lost to the internet. ah well. Atleast one thing hasn't changed, I have 0 clue what to include in these emails or how to write them. Let's see some current stats then, maybe we can compare them to the future. Age: 19 Favourite colour: Pink? Pets: 1 cat concerts seen: Troye Sivan, TWICE, Kurtis Conner? but technically not a concert Relationship status: Single (but maybe crushing on someone from work... :) ) Favourite singers + bands: Taylor Swift, 5 Seconds of Summer, One Direction, whatever tickles my fancy (listening to the era's tour setlist as I'm typing this) Currently studying: Bachelor of Health Sciences with a major in Psychology and Disability and Inclusion (second year) Amount in savings: Just hit $9k!! but will go down soon since I need to pay off HECS before dumb indexation hits (ouch) Currently feeling: Cold, but I love Melbourne winters. and also confused. Like a fly trying to get out, and repeatedly hitting the closed window instead of the open one right next to it, but can't seem to figure out how to change direction to get to the open window. So i keep hitting the closed one. Ouch. Notable people in my life: Few school friends, people from work are pretty chill. Not really made any notable uni friends (yay) I don't know how much can change in 3 years, it feels like so far away, 2026 feels like such a fake year (I mean so did 2023 at one point, yet here we are) , but I guess you'll be living it (unless you die prematurely... oops. Hi whoever is reading this after my *****, hope you're chilling. I know I am, ***** is pretty cool so far) If in the non humorous turn of events I am actually dead, go light a candle or smthn for me. idk how people honour dead people. In the more likely case I am actually well and alive and reading this: I don't understand the concept of asking future you questions, because there's no way you can tell the me typing these the answers. But there are some things I have hoped to have achieved, so you can see whether they've been achieved, and if not.... maybe get on to that. 1. Have a good job. I'm not going to mention a specific sector since I don't know how much things will change, but current me wants to get into allied health. 2. Lose the weight. The current target is to lose 30kg, hopefully that's gone down, or the very least stayed the same, and ideally not gone up. 3. Be able to drive. I doubt I'll have my full license, but it would be nice to atleast be able to drive myself places and not rely on mum. Here's to hoping I overcame the anxiety. 4. Have more friends. Don't get me wrong, I love the people I have in my life right now and I wouldn't trade them for anything, but I need to grow out of my comfort zone and actually talk to people I don't know. 5. Maybe have a significant other? I flip flop between being happy being completely independent and desperately wanting a relationship in fear of dying alone, at the very least, please tell me I can finally tick off held hands romantically on the rice purity test (my current score is 89 if you'd like to compare) 6. Become a better person. This one's more ambiguous, but the usual stuff of working on myself mentally, improving my mental and physical health. Become a kinder person who's open to new experiences. Don't let anxiety get the best of me. 7. Travel. Ideally solo, but I'll take with friends or family if it's to new countries. See more sites, experience different cultures. 8. Be closer to family, specifically cousins. This one's hard, I know. But we used to be so close when we were younger (probably helped by the fact that we lived in the same city). Hopefully we have redeveloped our relationship with them, because I miss them. 9. Go out more. I'm not talking clubbing every single night, but atleast get rid of the ability to count how many times you've drunk alcohol on your fingers. You're an adult now, most things aren't illegal anymore (within reason..... hopefully you've not gone out and ******** someone, that's probably still pretty illegal) I think that's about all I can think of for now. I should probably get back to uni work, given that it's a group project I guess I'll go back to pulling my weight... Like I said, I don't know how much can change in 3 years, I think you'll be 21 when you're reading this. That's such a grown up age, you better be doing grown up things. Life's weird. Everything's weird. As I'm typing this, there's a rainbow outside. According to a quick google, rainbows symbolise hope, transformation, and new beginnings. So here's to all those things and more <3 With love, Past me :)