A letter from May 15, 2023

I didn't attend church. I regret it. I'm slowly feeling my body getting weak and my mind getting close. I'm focused and attached again to this world. My brother finally attended church with his girlfriend. You can't explain the happiness I feel because I prayed for this. But now they are getting closer to God, and I am the one drifting away in my youth. I'm so happy God is working in their lives. It's such a blessing. I was strong. I believed in myself. I forgot to rely on the word. I fell into sin. The same. The same spot where Jesus saved me. I'm a failure. The nightmares are gone since I accepted him as my Saviour. I'm free. but somewhat stuck in my sin. God save me again. I'm sorry for letting you down. I shouldn't feel guilt. It should be "fire" within me to keep seeking the truth.