A letter from May 10, 2023

I am living the life I prayed for many years ago and I slowly begin to see it. But I realized that when I look at the schedules and pictures, something is pinching my heart. Jesus enters my mind. It is he who will make my heart whole and not activities. I'm blessed and grateful for everything that has been happening lately. I finally manage school and modeling. I get projects from time to time while earning money and getting enough time to study for exams. They contact me for work, and I also have good grades. I've been wanting this for so long. I'm enjoying my hobbies while pursuing my dream. But something seems off. Everything is so perfect, but Jesus should be in the picture. Only God can give me unexplainable peace. One day we will face him face-to-face on his throne to judge the living and the dead. He will separate his sheep. I wanted this diary entry to be happy and positive about the worldly dream, but God has revealed himself to me so many times in my dream and his presence that I can't just ignore them. He is waiting for you to stretch out your hands to him above the skies but also bow down and pray. He is waiting for you daughter. He didn't put you in this position for nothing. Maybe he wants you to be in this industry to open the eyes of many. He opened mine so why not others? There will be the right season. The waiting season is over. You are prepared for the battle my child. Go and preach my words. Do not love the things of this world for he is not in the father.