A letter from May 08, 2023

Dear FutureMe, lmao I just found this site and it is. certainly something! I just came across it on neal.fun lol I think I'll send this in 1 year! Actually nahh, 3 years... that means I'll see it in like April year 12! (nvm it's May not april you dummy) I'm 14 rn btw, but I'll turn 15 in a few months! kinda excited I'm thinking of inviting some shent friends and john friends maybe! and have a bigger party outside, then watch a movie or smth not TOO big tho... I'd get overwhelmed at my own party💀 in character tbh This really doesn't feel like much of a letter though... to be fair I am writing in shorthand and using emojis so it makes sense ANYWAYS have I got a job and ******* yet? **** wait am I still alive?? who even knows are we still addicted to gacha games😑 omg wait how are star rail and zenless zone zero doing?? and have we written a book or a musical?? is our attendance 100%?? and... have we shifted? then again time is just a construct so we already have, we are, and we will lol aaaa I'm so excited to get this letter!!! you're amazing btw, Ilysm :) lmfao I was playing around w/ this trolley problem website today btw and I chose the mona lisa original over someone's life... whoops... i'd like to think I wouldn't do that irl?? but who knows mmmmm what else should I ask? uhh kajfnelakbfha akjfhbeafibhaefaihef omg wait have we finished writing bk goes to hwrts+ how to sdce a fti hbingr yet?? or did we abandon them entirely KIGANOFIEA ARE WE STILL *** AS HELL ARE WE?? WE'D BETTER BE ISTFG WOMEN ARE HOT *ahem* I'm listening to the genshin desert OST rn btw it is a BANGER also have we released music yet?? I wonder if we've learnt guitar and vibrato on violin, also... I have so many questions!!! I kinda wanna shift to a dr where I can meet you but... that feels like cheating and anyways, it's a spoiler >:( also um. are we still a simp for you know who. you do know who right?? the uh, **** how do I describe them discreetly, the one who had like 6 ppl crushing on them (not recently though) nah I'm sure yk what I mean lol are we still friends w them?? and how are they doing, i hope they're doing awesome :) anyways do we have a platform of any sort? is the world less ******? oooo I hope we work somewhere cool, like a bookstore or smth... aaa I'm so excited I hope this actually ARRIVES in 3 years lol should I send it yet? it's only 400 words though... Not yet. What I really hope is that I don't receive this letter and feel empty looking back at it bc of how happy I used to be. ******* hell I am NOT doing that again I already cried that one time I went to see my lil sis play teeball from sheer childhood nostalgia ok also uhh hope lumi and paimon are doing well :) and say hi to kazu and scara for me!! I miss them already, even tho I haven't seen them...YET. you lucky mf, have fun with them :) I have a chem test tmrw.. well technically today but uh. i went to bed super late and didn't make it in today... I feel like a massive burden tbh. ANOUAYFB ANYWAYS I don't wanna VENT in this letter oh god my future self must be cringing so hard istg (or just thinking 'wow that was sad I really think like that?' I really hope you're thinking that. I hope we're better <33) also lmfao remember I used to go >3 bc I thought that was how you were supposed to <3? embarrassing uhhhhhhhhh oh have we watched AOT yet? idk I just haven't gotten around to it yet lol ALSO OMG DID WE GET A TOH OR SHERA MOVIE YET??? I WILL SCREAM (out of excitement or despair if not, who knows tbh) njaijfenalfb omg... our cosplays must ROCK. i quiver to even think like since we have makeup AND money now... we're gonna be too powerful >:) I think I might start wrapping this up... this has been fun and all but like akfheianf I have stuff to do. alright, I'll see you... in three years, yikes! I'll have changed a LOT. god, we're going to be so different aren't we! i look forward to it B) see you in the future!! With love (and cringe), Pheebs (also omfg how is ao3 going) AFKOIHA I DONT WANT TO END ITTTTTT HOWS OMORI GOING OML OMORI IS ANFKRABF SO GOOD IS THE FANDOM STILL ALIVE?? do we have taste.. HAVE WE READ EVERYTHING BY JUNJI ITO? IF NOT IM SO DISAPPOINTED ok imma stop now wait can I add images?? hold up awwww I can't!!! unfair do we stream?? do we have A FANBASE?? probably not :( nah I should be thankful that shii can get crazyyy anyways bye future me!! see you!! <333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 ...... i feel like i should add smth elseee maybe my passwords? or old writing? that makes sense NO *slaps face* YOU NEED TO STIP ITS 9:17!!!!! 9:17 I TELL YOU!!!!!! also lmfao I got suuuper petty abt sunflower and basically ruined that random tiktok's arguments >:) ARE YOU PROUD OF MEEE BEING PETTY ABOUT SUNFLOWER (MASSIVE OMORI SPOILERS) Hi! I’m not that much of a sunflower shipper but a lot of the info in this post wasn’t quite right, and I felt the need to clear up some misconceptions about this ship. 1: “basil always seems really uncomfy/nervous around sunny. You could argue he’s like this with anyone but he’s a lot more off around sunny.” To be blunt, of COURSE he’s gonna be awkward around Sunny- everyone is (excluding Kel because his social skills are just too powerful). Basil’s just seen his ex-best friend after four years, whose sister he helped fake a suicide for- he doesn’t even know where to BEGIN talking to him. He’s also one of the only characters who is weirded out by Sunny not responding- there’s actually a reason for this. Basil and Sunny were really close, Basil used to be one of the only people Sunny felt comfortable talking to- hence that photo of them discussing the book (the only photo where Sunny isn’t silent.) So it’s really strange for Sunny to be completely quiet and expressionless around him, whereas the rest are more used to it (not fully though- they’re still a tad weirded out.) 2: “sunny has fantasized about ******* basil over 4 times in headspace.” -This wasn’t Sunny, this was Omori. They are completely different people- Omori was only ******* HS basil because he kept revealing the Truth about Mari. These deaths of Basil occur in black space as well, which is literally where Sunny keeps all his repressed intrusive thoughts and trauma about Mari. Just because Omori harms Basil in Headspace doesn’t mean that Sunny wants to harm Basil irl- they care a lot about eachother and were best friends for years, hence why Sunny originally kept Basil in Headspace. 3: “basil implying he’s going to off himself after seeing sunny again (basil said both of these before knowing that sunny is moving.) its canon he was implying this (he offs himself in the neutral ending)" -Yes, it’s canon that Basil was suicidal BUT he was actually going to off himself regardless of whether he saw Sunny again. In the Hikikomori ending (when Sunny doesn’t go outside and never sees his friends, moving away) as they get into the car and drive away, it’s implied that Basil ****** himself as police sirens can be heard. Also in the neutral ending Basil dies because Sunny doesn’t save him- Basil ***** himself in the stomach whilst he’s hallucinating, thinking that he’s ******* SOMETHING. Also, Basil truly believed he was a waste of space and that his friends were better off without him- as his final affairs he gave the photo album to Sunny because he trusted him the most to take care of it, showing how close they are. 4: “this entire fight. (also implied basil was trying to ****** sunny)”? Basil was delusional, and believed SOMETHING ****** Mari. He says ‘why? Why won’t you stop?’ he genuinely believes he is attacking Something evil and that this will protect Sunny from it, he doesn’t get why his friend is resisting. He didn’t WANT to hurt Sunny, he was only ever trying to help him- but he wasn’t mentally stable at the time. The most important detail to me: Basil slashes or gouges Sunny’s eye out specifically on the side where Something's eye peeks out from Mari’s hair. They both forgave eachother after the fight as well- when they wake up in the hospital, during the secret ending, and smile at eachother with tears in their eyes. 5: “not to mention they don’t even know how to take care of themselves. How would they know how to care for eachother in a relationship. Overall sunny and basil are constantly reminding eachother of their trauma. It will probably take lots of therapy for them to even be friends again.” Okay, this comment kinda ticks me off, because honestly it could be repeated for ANY omori ship. None of them are healthy, because NONE of the characters are mentally healthy or trauma-free. Hero struggles with severe depression, Aubrey with anger issues and abusive+neglectful parents, Basil with suicidal ideation, psychosis, abandonment issues, a broken ‘normalcy compass’ (common in neglected children), and Sunny… well, you get the picture- and that’s just on the surface. When I ship sunflower, or suntan, or any other ship, I always write or draw them a good amount of time after the events of the game, mainly because I prefer shipping them after they’ve undergone therapy and are better, more healthy versions of themselves (unless it’s angst, of course.) Also that comment about it taking ‘lots of therapy for them even to be friends again’ isn’t quite true; as I brought up before, they forgive eachother in the hospital during the secret ending. Btw that’s kinda of the POINT, that they’re healing and that they’re human, and that they can heal together- for me that’s the main appeal for the ship. Basil and Sunny are the root of all the events in the game. Tehe ANYWAYS omfg wait I forgot I'm making this PUBLIC ppl are gonna see this ****💀💀 uhhh ignore the venting + shifting + omori stuff and apologies in advance😼 omg I swear if someone irl finds this **** imma cry this is supposed to be anonymous but like there's so much random stuff in here😭😭 good lord so much for digital footprint MOVING ON wait maybe I should make it private?? I'm kinda shameless tho like idgaf abt letting strangers see this stuff, like who knows maybe someone'll find it interesting! STOP I GOT SO OFF TOPIC ANYWAYS (future self you must be so done w me rn istg💀) OKOKOK IM *ACTUALLY* DONE NOW SEE YOU... IN THE FUTUREEEEEE (oh also I start neon genesis evangelion and its soo good!!! like ugh amazing) BYE FUTURE SELF!!! <33 (and hi to anyone reading this! don't kys if you're planning to btw, why die when cake exists) (that could be taken two very different ways) wait lemme just read over this quickly and make sure nothing rlly bad is here😭like anything that would oneshot my rep at school lmao nah I think that's fine! they already know I'm a nerd anyways lol Also stranger if you're reading this and share interests, or we're similar ages etc, I'm on discord at Pheenix #1171!! (omfg why am I giving out socials on a *******. letter to myself. literally what) ok its 9:28 now, this *clearly* spiralled outta control💀💀 BYE!!!