A letter from May 08, 2023

Dear Future Sammy, Assuming you’re still bumbling around and aren’t dead, I thought I’d share with you where I am at in life in the hopes of putting your current situation into perspective (no matter what it is). As it stands, I’m 20 years old and a Digital Media major and recently elected Senator of Public Relations at Delta College. Today I went to work at Exit Strategy Games and made $32 in tips! I worked out at home and am currently washing my sheets. Also talked to Kaiden about how we feel regarding this new boards composition. Yesterday I went out with Alyssa to see Evil Dead Rise, She’s really sweet and cute. Hopefully I will get to see her again soon as we seemed to hit it off. I've sort of been all over the place emotionally, but the good side of that is I get to try Baskin Robbins new **** all the time when I’m down. My biggest worries now are as follows: Trying to find love out here, I just want someone to hold and love. Someone who likes me for me and will be here to stay. Someone who is similar to me in the prospect of putting others first. Someone who is emotionally available for me. I want my tears to bleed her skin and her nails to pierce me. If I can’t share every second with the future wife of mine, then my life possibly would be at risk. Trying to make career headway as I move to Sac State in the Fall of 24. I’ve heard good stuff about it, but my own skill set shall be tested. Hopefully it’s not as hard as it looks, and I will enjoy the major since it is my interest. Maybe I even will have a podcast by now or something cool to show off my work. Some background info: I still am living with G&G and mom and dad and Rique and Jiya. Brody is angry as always, Rusty is constantly shoving his big ******* *** towards people, and Poppy likes to shake her paw. We’ve got a pig, 2 goats, bunch a chickens and ducks. Mom recently got her new old people job as I got my new position at Exit Strategy Games. I’m currently learning the ropes and everyone is really helpful. I can see myself being here in 3 years so it would be cool I guess if you are still, or maybe you’ve moved on to something even better. As I write this, I lie in my bed, awaiting my sheets to dry, in my gray robe and blue Bear Creek shorts. This past month has been absolutely insane for my mental health, but I feel I’ve hit the lowest crux and will continue to get better, there are many things that are looking up fortunately. In retrospect to other things like my previous exes: Imani: She was high spirited and brought up poorly. Fortunately she was smart enough to get her own life together and I was there to be a part of that. We broke up mutually although I brought it up because well, the distance hurt and we were simply too different of people. Nothing wrong with that. Shawntell: We had a great relationship, nothing really objectively wrong with it. What ended it though was I felt distant from her being away for so long and other people coming into my life who were just more present. Probably a false play on my part, but I did feel there were other minor deal breakers. To summarize, I’d like to think that the Sammy whose reading this is in the very least, still able to laugh at everything and remember his place in the community and his family and friends. If you’re still alive and have made it this far, I am so happy to see that my progress now as a 20 year old bloke has put me to where you are now. 23, and probably still a skinny *** ************.