A letter from May 07, 2023

Dear FutureMe, If you are seeing this, I want you to know that I am truly so so proud. I know that we have had so many bad points in our life but the fact that you made it to this day is so special and important. Happy birthday by the way. I want you to know that you are loved and cared for, if not by anyone else, by me. I never thought I would make it this far. But if I did, take a few minutes to think who helped me get here, who helped my stay alive( even through all the times we wished that we weren’t even born). I know that all of this sounds SO cheesy (it kinda is) but, it really means a lot to me(13 year old Nina) that you are doing ok. I have wanted to die for so long now and if I make even to the day after my 16th birthday, I will be so, glad and proud( I’m at a loss for words rn ngl). Nina, you deserve so much love. Nina you deserve to surround yourself with people that truly care for you. If you are unhappy, please please change it. I know little nina might not be able to control her life but I know you can. So please, do it. If you want a little update on me, I’m not doing great. I saw someone do this and I thought I should too. To be honest, I really hate my life rn. My family is mad at me what feels like 24/7. I think all my friends hate me. I’ve been so jealous for no reason. I hate my body. A few weeks ago I started crying after I saw my body in the mirror. I am trying so hard to love myself, it’s just so hard to do that when you vent find a single thing that you even like about yourself. That’s enough about my life though. I hope that you don’t start tearing up when you read this(if you ever do) like I am rn. I love you so much. So please be kind to yourself everyday. With so so much love and appreciation, Past Nina May 7, 2023 (age 13) ❤️