A letter from May 02, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Bro its almost the end of year 8. Omfg bro time flipping flew by. Yk the guy you rly used to like, yh well over tbe summer you forced urself to get over him but the beginning of this year i kinda realized i was like over him and i didnt like him anymore. But we were split up in different classes. So like you had a massive crush on him in year 7 but over tbe summer you got over him and beggining year 8 you thought u still liked him. But the “feeling” i used to get when i was talking ot texting him wasnt there anymore. And i thought the feeing wasnt tbere bc we barely spoke. And then for like 6 or 7 weeks our classes did sports together and we became friends and closer again. So like we did sports together and we sat next to eachother in the bus and eveything. We started texting more and then after sports class we hung out yk? Anyways i had only told a few of my friends that i liked him. Right before vacation he told me he liked me and i told him that back and then he asked me to be his gf and everything. And so like i may or may not be dating a guy to who i lost feelings for before we were even togeteher. But does that mean im dating a guy who ive never had feelings for? Bc like i used to like him in year 7 but ive never actually had feelings for him while we were together. And like i kinda feel like sometimes i kinda like him and yk. But then i think and i try to think if im falling for the guy himself or the memories i have with a guy i used to like. Bc to be honest the memories i have with this guy are rly good and theyre special to me but these memories were all while i was crushing on him and he didnt like me back. And if it couldnt get any worse hes moving at rbe end of year 8, literally less than two months from now. And not like moving houses or maybe even schools. No, country entire flipping country. And tbh i think i only said i liked him back bc i used to have a massive crush on him and i had wished that he would tell me this for the longest time. Except now that it did happen im tryyna see if i did the right thing. Plus none of my friends like him and ik friends play an important part but not majore yk? But not not even my best friends like him. And its awkard in person at school and everything. Ik im still young and it probably wont matter in 5 years but its my first bf. I could be 110 in my ***** bed and id still remember my first bf. Everyone remembers their first bf and tbh i dont think ill be any different. Anyways its like 2am and were ***** go see kittens tmr and then i have a sleepover at alias place with alice too. So thats ***** be rly fun. Last time at 3am we were baking in the kitchen. So yh, idk why im putting this public and tbh im not even ***** read over this and well see you in 3 years EV.