A letter from Apr 29, 2023

Scott Street - Phoebe Bridgers I'm writing to you from the past, at a time when I'm feeling anxious, conscious, and confused about everything. These past few days, i’m demotivated to come to classes, and I feel drained in everything. Even going out feels draining, when back then it used to make me happy. I shut my doors and I eventually want to come home and just be in my room. I don't know what phase I'm going through, but everything just seems too much right now. I feel insecure about my romantic life (which sounds petty), and I'm coping with studies, but it feels like I'm a robot with no feelings. I'm not sure if it's burnout or just a lack of motivation, but I feel like I'm closing the doors to everyone and deactivating my whole life, not just my socials. It's sad, exhausting, and depressing, but I know I will overcome whatever this is. I want you to know that I'm taking steps to work on myself and take care of my mental health. I always had a hard time opening up to anyone because it feels like a burden and it’s just useless. Maybe talking to my friends and family about how I feel, are somehow ways to recharge my batteries. I am in a emotional rollercoaster. I feel like the only solution might not be right and it will just cause further damage to everyone. And I don’t want to be a burden. I hope that when you read this letter, you'll be in a better place mentally and emotionally. I hope you're feeling happy, confident, and fulfilled in your life. I hope that you're pursuing your passions and enjoying every moment of it. If you're still struggling with these feelings, I want you to remember that you're not alone. There are people who care about you and want to help you through this. Don't be afraid to ask for help and support when you need it. No matter what happens, I know that you will overcome these challenges and emerge stronger and more resilient. Keep pushing forward and never give up on yourself. Love, Yourself.