A letter from Apr 25, 2023

Dear Future Asma, It's 17 years old you. I planned to write you this letter when I'm in a good mood, but sadly I had a bad day today. I have done nothing today but sleeping and playing on my phone:(. Anyway I wanted to remind you that it's okay to have a lazy day once in while. What I really hope for you is to get over the trauma you got through. pls take your time to check over that. you're very important to me, nothing has to stops you from being great. even if you didn't get through some it's ok you did so good, and you have more much time to be the healthiest version of yourself. I really wish you got the future you that you wanted, or the one that you living in happily. or enjoying most of your time in. I want you to live smarter than what your younger self lived. now you have to study to start being independent. to buy your own little things for yourself and don't have the need to say why you bought them. I really wish you're doing good in your deen. that's what I really wish you could answer quickly. I love you so much, I love all the little good things that you do but you have to pray in the correct way, or in better way than now. and start wearing your hijab and not showing your hair to any man you see on the street, because it's not worth it. god did that to make you have a special contact with women, because there isn't anything more beautiful than women. I hope you grown to love yourself more and for that you start to make yourself a better person for yourself. for who you want to be, for baby Asma and for old Asma. I want you to be good and healthy, I want you to love the place you're living in, I want you to have your hobbies, I want you to find the love in yourself, I want you to love your mom more than ever. I want you to stop showing emotions outside of your own room( you might think this is extreme but people are not that nice), I want you to stop being nice to everyone you meet. I want you to not be attach to anyone, it's very bad for you, you don't have to overthink about this person, your overthinking about yourself is more than enough. I don't want to make it longer but I wish you all the love and I support you, even if you haven't done all the things I wrote, and I'll always love you. sorry if I wasn't that nice to you, sorry if I have been nicer to other people than you. let us live in peace and quiet, let us love ourself more. your Asma