A letter from Apr 23, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I am crying right now while writing this to you I feel pathetic by saying that , I feel abandoned , forgotten, a weird girl walking in the darkness while she holds the light inside of her . You are an optimistic person , I hope you still have that shiny smile and that weird laughter . You are not made for love . The only man you loved was your father and he died , your best friend have cheated on you because you were better , your friends left you and every person who tries to love you dies or mysteriously dissappears . You are not made for love and you will never be loved the way you deserve.. you are too good to be loved . I am saying that because it's the truth . You are too perfect and too beautiful and too smart but never fit into this world . Remember the guy from your class that was madly in love with you ? He is now but I don't know if you still meet him sometimes . He truly loves you huh ? I remember when he ran to close the window when it was almost to hit me . I remember the look in his eyes when he said I love you for the first time .. but I don't like him because he is toxic and a person that could possibly hurt you someday .. physically or mentally. I stopped crying by the way . Remember every person you loved and how they treated you or mysteriously left you . I know that I'll never be loved as I want and never find my fictional man who's written by a woman . If my soul mate is reading this and we never had the chance to meet I want to take a moment with you please. Dear soul mate. Maybe you are married or you will marry someone that is not me . Would you do a favor for me ? When she cries hold her tight to your chest and kiss her hair .. when she gets scared hold her hands and kiss them and tell her that you are with her . And when you have a fight ... never yell or go out ... hug her . The things that maybe I won't live I want from other girls to live because when you can't fly you like see birds flying . Why am I so sure that I won't be loved as I deserve ? Because ... everyone I loved left me . And I don't mind that because I'm a smiley , shiny , lovely , gorgeous , sweet girl . I want to be a writer by the way . I love you dear Selma . I hope you a great life and I want you to meet your own fictional man or you can rely on men in books for the rest of your life . I think this is the end . Be your own geet ♡ Love life and always, always, always smile .. you are too precious to lose your self again . Selma . 23/4/2023 . The happy girl was here .