A letter from Apr 23, 2023

Dear FutureMe, i am in the tenth grade and i had a horrible panic attack today. i couldn't breathe. because today was the day i realised i was not going to iit. and i send this letter in the hope that even though you are not getting into iit, you will be happy. really, that is all i want for ya. i reallllyyyyy want you to be awesome and stuff but also please be happy. whenever you think about leaving this world or... you know what i mean... just think about having kids. i really want kids that's it. 11:11 today i wish for getting into school of Rock. today i wish for... ntse and iit and bring skinny, despite it all. but today i wish that my 18 year old self knows she is enough. because she is. love, a terrified almost 15 y.o.