A letter from Apr 22, 2023

Dear Future Me, I hope I finally left my "depressive" state of mind. I'm surely not dying, but I'm not feeling my best, either. Days are empty, and I don't know when I'll feel better. I hope that whenever you receive this message, days are brighter and nights are less lonely. I wonder if you're still with Mohamed. If you ever met, that's a great thing. I'm just chilling in the bedroom, listening to some oldies from *********. His songs are so calming and soothing. I want you to listen to the music "Forever" from his album "Circus Town" while you read this. We'll feel connected. Please don't cry and reminisce about some beautiful times back in Congo (again). I'll be sad for you. Let me be the crying one, just for tonight. If I send this letter, I want you to know I love you. Don't ever feel like you're not enough. You are enough. Anyway, how's school? I know you have your driver's license, right? Oh well. Life is tiring anyway. I constantly feel like I'm not doing enough. It's weird how I would have never expected my life to turn out this way just a couple of months ago. Have you made any real friends yet? Mom keeps asking me if people are friendly to me here. Have you finally made a significant connection? I'm tired, it's 11:48 PM, and I'm putting my whole feelings in this small letter. You'll never be able to feel how I feel today again, and yet, I already miss this feeling. It's sad, empty, and pitiful. So beautiful. Anyway (once more), never forget who you are, where you come from, and the people you met throughout your life. Don't forget your besties in France. Don't forget your friend who is trying to become a doctor. Don't forget your grandmother back home and her dog. Don't forget your aunties and nephews. Don't forget your roots. Peace and love, Your bisexual ***. xoxo