A letter from Apr 19, 2023

Dear FutureMe, hey Ash, how's it going? I know we have a lot going on right now but we need to stay strong and just focus on us. I wanted to ask you some questions if it's okay, if not just close the letter ;) so, are you still there or did you really lose control? we know that can mean two things, the first would be that you deleted every social media profile that you had so you get a better mental health and a fit body, the other would be that you are not existent anymore :( (i really hope its number one or that you just got better) Do you have more or less friends than now? i mean we did never really have a lot of friends but you had close ones and that was enough, but i really hope you got some more because it's like they always say "the more the merrier" ;) Did you finally out yourself? like really? We wanted that for so long now, almost two decades. I hope that worked out, i don't know if you lose some friends or even cut off your Family, i just hope that you came out to some of your closest persons :) Are you still in therapy or did therapy really help you? i know that we think that therapy is useless for someone like us, but it would be really great to know if it helped and i really hope so because you wanted that the most. Did you lose another being that was close to you? I know right now are a lot of close beings that are not that healthy anymore, but i hope no one passed away :/ Do you finally live on your own? You wanted that so badly because you could finally get the pets you ever wanted XD you would have enough space for you and could listen to your music without any interruption. Did you get into your hobbies, or at least a few of them? I know they changed a lot from time to time, but some were the same and i really want to know if you still have some of them or if you have completely new ones. Did you live by the quote? You know which one i mean but if you really forgot it, then i'm just gonna repeat it "Look, kid, everyone wants to believe they're "chosen". But if we all waited around for a prophecy to make us special, we'd die waiting. And that's why you need to choose yourself." that quote is the one i mean, i hope you lived like it said and that you chose yourself. Do you still hate yourself? I know that's a hard one but i need to know, we know there were a lot of people who said "i hate you" and you always thought "well you're not alone because i hate myself too" but i hope that you don't hate yourself anymore, i hope that you love who you are and that you are proud of who you are. What job did you decide to learn? right now we have no idea what we want to be when we are "grown up" because we always thought we would never pass the age of eighteen because we would commit suicide before that :( i am really interested what you chose and i hope that you have fun at what you do. that should have been all questions that we can think of right now :) i wish you good luck for the future and i hope you got a good life till now yours dearly Ashley