A letter from Apr 19, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hey future me. I'm right now worried about not having any experience in you know which company. Like I was simply sitting for 2 years. I wonder how that affected my interviews. I called a guy from UTD who joined in Fall 22 batch and he said the recession is just about to begin and if I join now, by the time I graduate things could be much worse for me and stuff. So, kinda freaked out. I am so scared I will be unemployed. Idk what I will do when it is time to give interviews. I know for you, if everything went by plan, it has been months since you graduated with master's. That's why I'm writing this out to that date. I guess I will always have these moments where I am worried about the future. But one step at a time, I was so worried I won't get into a university but I did. I hope I am able to slowly pay amma acha back for paying for my education. So do that okay, if you're not already burdened with the responsibility of kids or house or car or whatever, keep a fund aside for amma acha and maybe spend that money to buy expensive stuff for them. Maybe you could give them an all-expense paid trip to like Maldives or something. I wonder if I would be proud of the person I am when I'm reading this. I know I'm proud of the person I am right now, personality-wise. Academically I am not sure I am doing my best. I need to in UTD though. I wonder how my experience will be in UTD. Will I do a lot of crazy stuff? Will I meet amazing lifelong friends? Will I meet my life partner? I am right now in a stage where I daydream about that stuff cuz chechi did so why can't I? But like, sometimes I remind myself to stop getting myself into that delusion. I know what I want. I want to kind of live by myself for at least some time. I want to see what that is like. Maybe all these thoughts would have changed by the time I read this. Maybe I would be in India cuz I didn't get employment in the US. That's fine honestly, as long as I have a pretty good job enough to support myself financially. I don't know who I will be in 3 years. I hope I am a good person. And also, if you are working, pay some money to futureme, cuz you owe it to this website cmon. Yeah sooo as I was saying, I am trying to not get myself too worried about not having any experience in you know which company. It was not my fault but now I am starting to think it is my fault that I didn't leave the company and start looking for something else with proper enthusiasm. Anyways, hope it doesn't come back to bite me in the *** but I am sure it will. So yea, right now is a usual afternoon. I am sitting at the desk in Abudhabi with all my Data Science books and stuff. I just ate 2 whole packets of indomie spicy fried noodles with hot sauce and stuff. Right now I am busy with all the enrolling for classes, but I am doubting if I should enroll now or wait until after getting my visa. Also, I have to take the visa from UAE and I need to figure that out. Also, I still haven't gotten results from SUNY Buffalo, Glasgow, and Sheffield so I don't know if I should wait for them before applying for the visa. But then how much more could I wait? Also, I am doubtful if I should fix the accommodation now because there are a lot of Tamil people and no Malayali people as of now looking for the same type of housing I am looking for like budget and all. So I am worried that if I fix it now, what if later malayali people come around and I regret doing it so early? I mean not hating against people from other states at all, but maybe it would be nice to have people from Kerala? So those are some of the thoughts plaguing me. I was watching Manifest series. I don't think I will watch the full thing. It is already seeming a little boring and I am only in the first season. I will take a video on Snapchat right now so maybe you can look it up later. Alright, I just did a full 360-degree video of the room. We are going to Bhutan in 2 days for the trip. I hope I enjoy the trip even if it is with a bunch of people I don't know. Yeah so that is my life. I love my 2-litre water bottle. I hope I still drink a lot of water. I am going to stop writing now and maybe go do a leet code problem. I heard that doing a lot of those could help me land an internship. So wish me luck. Oh wait, no use of wishing luck from future. Okey Buhbyeee