today, 2023

today. today is april 18 and a tuesday at 9:17 pm. I hope you are reading this wishing you could tell me about the good and the bad, and the things that were going to happen. I pray that we are happy with the place we are in, where facing all those fears, worries, and bad times is worth it. I hope you wake up every morning, glad you woke up and feel blessed for this day. I dream that you have found happiness in people, things, places, and anything else. I pray that you speak of these rough times in a great way, not bad because this time is great and I am blessed to have everything that I have and everyone I have. I hope your life is going the way it wanted it to, and I pray that you are taking care of yourself. Don’t neglect yourself and care for your mind, body, and spirit. Happy birthday and don’t worry; Everything will be okay. Everything happens for a reason, and if you don’t know the reason… you are in the happening; enjoy it. I have slowly been learning that healing is a slow process, you cannot beat yourself up for healing too slowly. You WILL heal. Keep smiling. Those small worries, insecurities, and concerns will only be forgotten in a year’s time. Be grateful for the small things; for your friends and family… the memories you make along the way. Even when it seems that life is falling apart around you, it takes all the destruction to build up the new. Stop comparing the us that is a blast from the past to the us that is present so go forward confidently into the future and trust your gut. There is so much more to life than finding someone who will want you or staying sad over someone who doesn’t and wondering what you could have done differently. There’s a beautiful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn’t need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself with love; not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, spend time with your friends, wander around the city or neighborhood at night, and sit in coffee shops on your own. Be rebellious, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, give to others and the community, and remember to smile. Do all things with love, but don’t romanticize love like you can’t survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful; I promise. I want you to be different from the us of now, but not the same as everyone else. Remind yourself to be better, but not because you want to be better than someone else. Mold into your own being, but not in the same mold that everyone else uses to grow and thrive. Aim in the direction that your path follows, but not what the people around you follow. Allow yourself to have setbacks but do not, I repeat do not be scared of what set you back in the first place. See the same goal that I have today, but not in the same that I am looking at it now. I want to recognize you but not feel as if I am looking in a mirror once again. I hope you learn to love yourself before someone else. It is not easy to be positive all the time but remind yourself that if you feel that you are going to crumble lean on those that love you; I don’t care whether it is parents, friends, siblings, or other adult figures. Remember that this is all part of the process. love, al