A letter from Apr 17, 2023

dear 2026 kal-El today is April 17th 2023, the day after you totaled the jeep. By now i’d hope you’re driving a 2016 Subaru and looking towards buying your first home. But current you is terrified of what’s to come. in life it seems your only purpose is to set up the next generation, your children for success. this is what my father did for me. as much as i want to provide the world for my future children, i don’t want this to be my life’s purpose. It seems as though most people hit a certain point in their lives when they realize the only thing they have to cling onto this world is their children. so instead of focusing on their own dreams and realizations they put all their efforts into children, in order to allow their name to further their legacy. however, i want to be the legacy. at this current time (2:19 PM on a Monday in 2023) Kal-El Scott Green truly lives life believing either he’ll end up dead before the potential is ever realized or he’ll reach every bit of his potential and have all the things he dreams of. maybe this is naive, maybe it’s a ***** wish of a belief. but he truly can’t imagine living a life where he’s not satisfied in every aspect. maybe it’s shallow but he dreams of a big house, nice cars, and all the latest technology. Maybe it’s materialistic, but truthfully he doesn’t see himself being satisfied with these things without a wife and kids to share them with. it may be selfish and unrealistic, but without life lining up perfectly he vividly imagines the day a bullet is sent through his temple. I’m a strong kid, i’ve had many realizations at the age of 19 then most adults in their fifties have. i’ve made more correct moves and delt with my mistakes far more impressively then a great portion of my family. at only 19 years old. but regardless it all feels useless in the image of reality. I want my children to live an immaculate and prosperous life but i don’t want that to be my life’s goal. “ i couldn’t do it for myself so i might as well do it for my children “ ironically, the parents with this mentality end up ****** it all up. I suppose all of the motivation is really there. for some reason i just can’t find it. at the back of my head there’s always something that tells me life is better off being something i don’t experience. for the literal life of me i cannot find enough good to outweigh the bad. I know i’m not a bad person, i know the difference between right and wrong, i have discipline, though it may not be enough, and i try so hard every day, but never ever catch the break i need. let’s see what happens with the jeep, and the next 3 years of your life. I really pray you find the HOPE, MOTIVATION, and PURPOSE you need to be the top G Good luck 🍀