A letter from Apr 16, 2023

Dear FutureMe, do you wanna know what, IM EFFING IN ANOTHER SILLY PHASE OF MINE, in my blue lock phase and it must be one of my worst💀 i am going absolutely insane, i need to be kept back. in my rin and shidou(the zesty one) phase😭 bahaha, but ig these phases aren't that bad bc it helps life seem more worthwhile🙏🏼 i always feel like these letters are saurrr useless but im gonna accept that these are just diary entries bc i have no one else to talk to that will actually listen without thinking im looking for attention or thinking that im repetitive bc they think im trying to prove something (i say this knowing that the futures me will absolutely hate all these letters😭) it's the first full week back after the first term of grade 9 and im already tired💀 went out with the family today and there actually wasn't any point where there was a mini argument, proud of that🙏🏼 im falling back into the cali agenda and the feeling that i might die if i don't make boop know that i actually exist😭 but im listening to never felt so alone by labrinth (which is finally one spotify) and its making this feeling almost as bad as it was 2 years ago😭 yes, its been 2 years since i fell in love with a girl from cali that doesn't know i exist😂 buck-tick just came on so feeling like kuv!! so feeling better than i was just a few moments ago!! bleach and jjk come out in 4 months, very, VERY excited to see ichigs and byakuya, and getou and gojo again🙏🏼🙏🏼 i think i might need some help sorting out my thoughts bc sometimes they scratch my brain but not in a good way, in a injuring it was, not a nice scratch like some silly sounds😔 anyway, need to go play genshin before sleepy time🥱🥱🥱 Sunday, 16th April 2023 20:56