A letter from Apr 16, 2023

Dear FutureMe, hi, this is you three years ago, how are you? (i hope you still use this email) i hope you meet the expectations that i have now, also happy birthday! the year that you are going to recieve this letter is probably going to be the best year in my life. since the day that i have arrived in saudi arabia, ive been looking forward to me eventually being you when i reached this certain year. how was graduation? did you graduate? if not, are you excited to graduate? as you know, every single day ive been looking at the countdown go on -1 day as the time pasts just waiting and waiting for eternity for when i finally can start my own future, travel. see the world, and be free just like i once was when i lived in Chicago. do you still want to go to Houston, tx? Las vegas? Back to Chicago? Or did you find another place even better? please never give up on accomplishing this one single goal ive been aching for during all these years. i don't want you to let your younger self down. what's you future job? are you still indecisive? what about the people in your life? did you meet someone new? Are you inlove, Were you inlove? did you move on from the people you met in the past? are you happy, excited, or just comfortable with your life right now? what about mom? is she married? is she on her way to achieving her dream on building a house for all of us to live in? your sisters? did they all get jobs? Are we all together or is someone traveling at the moment, Did you ever go back to Thailand, go on another vacation? I hope yes, because im really looking forward to go back there. If you didn't go, one day me and you alone will travel all around the world. without having to wait on anyone else besides your self. no matter what sacrifices you'll have to give to achieve this goal. You go ahead and do it, and have fun. How are tiger and lucy? did you get new pets or did you lose any? how old are they? I hope theres a new member of the family. Right now i feel like we are missing a pet. I have a feeling in my gut that someday in the future. theres gonna be an addition! what about your language? are you stronger in arabic? i hope you grip onto your english language, it's your future. but at the same time, one day i hope that i'll be able to read and write in my mothers tongue. Did you achieve that? And dad? how are sammi and sarah, did you visit them more? did they grow? Is dad still married? What about his house? did he sell it, or change the house at all? is your relationship with him closer? do you see him often? these are all the questions that one day ill have the answers to, im so excited to one day meet you, become you, and realize how much ive changed over the years. right now im not particularly sad or "unhappy", i just feel like there is always one thing missing, i feel trapped and i always always think about my past, there's not one day that goes by without thinking about those memories. i hope you can restore that one thing missing. See you soon - From: 15 year old you. - To: 19 year old me.