A letter from Apr 10, 2023

Dear... Me. It's been a long and arduous journey these months and... honestly years. I had to lookup the word arduous btw, hopefully you've improved your vocabulary. I'm listening to the artist Flow on a Spotify radio station I had a nice morning, I got up really early and spent the morning getting a nice frappe from mc d's and a Baconator with homestyle fry's from Wendy's and read the morning paper, it was quite nice. I got home, it's a depression pit in my room and bathroom. Fortunately it's mostly laundry. Reminds me how terrible I'm doing right now. It's April 10, hopefully this summer I am taking the EMT course. Man have I gotten behind on my studies and everything. It's all for a good cause though, we prioritized making some money, fixing up loose ends, and most of all getting a handle on this gender transition! Random but I kind of hate my writing style, it's got to go. I need to read more books instead of newsreels and reddit comments, it gets to your head. Last time I did one of these letters many years ago... I feel like I had a fantasy for what I would have. Happiness? Love? ***? A happy-******-rainbow land? Anyways I'm hoping you've succeeded in what I am hoping to accomplish, a job where you can be yourself, a less depressive outlook, maybe you're happy, maybe you're even in ******-rainbow land! Haha yeah right. Good luck and god speed you stupid stupid *******. - 22 year old you