A letter from Apr 12, 2023

Apr. 13, 2023 Dear Josen, It's almost 7am today and you're still asleep kasi puyat ka from your part time job. Ako, absent ako from work sa TaskUs kasi may pasok ako kahapon sa school which is whole day. Sometimes, I would think na it would be better if we just stayed as Grade 10 students na maglalakad lang sa daan tuwing gabi, magkukwentuhan at kakain ng street foods. Life's better then, right? Though wala tayong masyadong pera, we were happy just to have each other. Right now, I'm really struggling. I know ikaw din. I'm really struggling to live. People say that there's so much to life to look forward to but why can't I feel motivated? It feels like I can't keep going anymore. Don't get me wrong, your encouragement means a lot to me and it kept me going for 4 years now. Kaso lately, it feels like I can't do this anymore. I'm so tired of life. Sabi nila, life begins at 40. Mag 20 pa lang ako in 2 months peo pagod na ako. Free trial lang pala to? Hayy. Thank you for staying. Thank you for being with me through thick and thin. Thanks for simply existing, be. If time comes that I'm not with you anymore when you receive this message, always remember that I will always support you. Kahit nasaan ka pa or nasaan man ako. I am forever grateful for you. I love you. I hope you're doing well ngayon. Keep going and take care of yourself. Warm embrace, R