A letter from Apr 07, 2023

Dear FutureMe, it’s always been a fault in me i guess, i show too much love i don’t know who to show my love to i don’t know how prioritise my love it’s a all just more is more in my head i give away everything i have to make other people happy i spent all that money hoping my friend would show me more love i gave away all my time into hoping my cousin would stick with me i gave away the only money i had left hoping that one day they’ll remember me i guess all these mean nothing unless u have money power and glory or is my belief system just wrong no matter what i do i can’t seem find the people that stick with me that will genuinely love as much i love them honestly i’m just scared now i’m scared all this damage to me will remain as scars and not healing wounds i’m scared i won’t be able to find that fullness i’m scared nobody will actually be there like that i’m scared i’ll never have money or power most importantly i’m scared i’ll die like this i hope genuinely all is good now.