A letter from Mar 29, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hey how are you? I hope you’re doing well! This past week or should i say month has been quite rough on me, its end of the second trimester and we have lots of exams and i need to turn in my applications to schools so you can imagine how stressful it has been. But having great friends can make you overcome everything right? Well i just fought with my best friend over something I don't even know myself and in the process she said really mean things to me while i remained calm and respectful and told her i cared a lot for her during it all multiple times and she ignored me. She got her sister involved too and now they are both not talking to me, and as if that wasn’t enough they are trying to take the whole friend group away from me. My only regret throughout all of this is not speaking up when she disrespected me. I was too nice so from now on i am determined to stand my ground and not show up as weak ever again. To be completely honest with you, they had been changing a lot recently and i wasn’t happy with the friendships but i knew that in three months i will be moving out and the friendships were going to fade away themselves so i was prepared for that, i just wasn’t fully prepared to see her talk to me that way. I don't really care tho as i do have other people to talk to, i have my other best friend Xhejsi, she’s from another class but she has been by me through everything. People come and go and i have learned to accept that, I refuse to cling on anyone. I submitted my documents to some schools in England and I’m waiting for a reply, wether I will get any offers for scholarships or not. Based on those reply’s I’ll take some exams and maybe they will call me out for interviews and then i get a final answer. This is all that matters to me right now. Dad is working really hard to make enough money to send me there but i refuse to go without a scholarship, i cant put so much pressure on my family. Im actually nervous to go because for a fourteen year old this is a very hard decision to make. I have thought it through multiple times before actually asking my parents. I know its going to be hard, but there’s nothing we can’t do right? By the time you read this you should be in your third year of high school in England i hope. I know we will have come so far and done so well. Do you still want to be a doctor? Do you regret going?(ik u don’t but still) Did you make lots of awesome friends whi treat u right? Did u find a guy who’s actually good enough to be your boyfriend ahahah? There are so many thing i wanna ask and say but im going to close this off by saying that we are loved and we can do anything we set our minds to. Don’t let anything come in our way please! Show them, prove everyone who thought we couldn’t make it wrong, don’t let anyone get to us. You are strong and loved.