A letter from Mar 29, 2023

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, hi! this is 21 year old you. firstly i hope you’re doing well. right now it is 12:14am and i just watched a tiktok about writing a future letter. today i finally turned in my resignation letter! of course the boss called and spewed a bunch of bs to make me stay but im feeling mostly relieved that im almost out of there and onto a new chapter in life. you know ur girl is in her broke ***** era but im gonna make it work. this is the first time since i was a teenager that im not going to have a full time job and im sure you will remember how useless and lowkey stressed im feeling right now. what job did you end up getting? did you get to take swimming classes? how was starting acupuncture school? how is esther doing? im like 99.99% sure ur little sister is still the center of your life because you love her so much. i hope ur in ur hot girl era right now. im making a guess that our hair is finally long again and that makes me happy. you better not have gotten an undercut again for the third time, because you know growing that out will be a DISASTER. hey. u better go on vacation this year. or if you’re really too busy it better be soon. stop treating yourself like ****. remember u said xcaret. if not at least some tropical place please. how are mom and dad? im hoping ur at least smart enough to read pulse and help mom do some cupping now, or else im sure you’ll feel like a useless piece of ****. as much as i hate to admit it i think by today you probably have almost completely forgiven mom and dad. and i think that’s good. I don’t blame them for any trauma, i just hope we’re strong enough to take care of them now. did u get a girlfriend at all? although im currently opposing the idea of a relationship i know that you still wish for someone to connect and care for you. i hope that there’s someone to tolerate your situation and love you for who you are. im pretty sure you’re still unable to come out, but it’s okay. I’m sure we’re getting there soon. don’t get brainwashed back to homophobia christianity gurl. I’d hate you for it if u do. buy a bottle of soju and cheers yourself today! us making it through is worth celebrating. i love you so much and i look forward to the you im becoming. 🤍

Epilogue

about 21 hours later

hey 21 year old me,

funny thing is i completely forgot this letter existed. i know there's another one i wrote a while ago though, that one seems to stick...

Dinm my no. Yb it mrremeeb i estg 'tnwo eieddevrl het ymeba teim. .
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Het ackb eowrdk ngiog ereht nddee 2 t,a ew ohretna to i pu rfo dteyas dan yasre eholt. Tinsdet o,ffeic itsh ttha i an a at trows odemv etim ikwrngo ym eifl sbolutea eno tiuq fo osp tw,b to dtstine's si dna neth. Elrayl rdceoniit od ni ti tem me i to smeo nepdito tynsdetir eth tgrhi ta least nngieue nad otn - tub lpopee. .
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Aegtr is eenb and heetsr erom v'ie pdoru eevrn nigdo. Esh fo teebtr eth to in oivsren us awy eervy sesme be. Treag a of ostl o,wn nfreids and at hes usc made is. Ojb re,h has hes niesrfd rhe daem itllet crerswoko a ratp dna erthe meit all osal olve rhwee. Makse lif,e eltls ameigni wthi dan hpayp acn uoy cyr neonctt hhiwc thta me to vrey 'shse wnat em hes. .
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S'it yatalulc a,gnia si iyallfn ognl a airh astp ogln stwai my ttliel yver ym. Bda ahtt i ohw cdtueunr uto orggniw emerembr it swa. Veren agnai. Tusck not it itgptemn oehp eb up i oy'du ndgyi v'ie ot aihr atht lgad ulbe btu ianag, gthil kid hear ot dan ym me edn is nyectelr rlyeal odnt' ngido. Ot i ubzz uct go mi higrt? piixe feober lnspa 03, veah dan looy.
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2 etesssmre dit'dn olhcso ptucruceanu satp satl. No ot leirdaez jbo adn ptsrane kowr ibyllcaas rof my i ottiwhu no wthi rycesiut yan won utpprso csaatssmel islccni 0k5 rdemopca atht my rlyaead twih nowt' npiyag lal. Psqrere otg dna bkac dan i ndoe gprmrsao nletad a ard etch cc for my heenyig enwt to. Ot tsart aehr eb jtsu ujen omrpgra htta in ogettn dha i gadl uoyd' dna pcateced rof a. Yfllain irtnoiecd tgrih? ongig rhtgi ti feli iekl esmes is het ni. .
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Ootk cas!less i yare imgmsinw mswi i ohw ddi dnleera and yliafln hetm aetk slta ot. I mroe eht in go alern awnan rutfeu adn back. Raey, dad bcak sjut no pitracnaec hda tgo i htwi eartxc raencc ,nwo go nnpdlea deagdosni for vacya ubt nicah isth ot for ot. Rof teh ahtt 'mi isperoncgs snemtoio neo isllt. Hits naaicovt os ryae no. .
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Kthni htta e'vi uoy nfnyu on ya,s lyteoelpcm i veifrnog tond'. Eht o'tnd ,edsrae time i tumaar nca be inhkt tjsu ditpsee. Eht du'yo twiinh eoms isnactens eraln 3 seray to rodieirhf be apst. Ubt sit' ctleepoylm i nioeln ym would pots owh ti fo pretnas it hirgt ouy cut nwko yan ym nad si em to ffo, ppleoe etll ulodc in. Veah to ahtt ersh'et onw rwehe i eftuur a of mom atek ispolbes rcae ,ainag dd'sa yrev cski. . . Em nad sti' gnscari. Trgnyi si eapsec ie'v ot my onw nbee flie ot ounbd oewlh nsoepr ywh hatt ti is hte me. . . . .
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Eayh dyo'u sirerspdu eb. . . A idnk iflniredgr i idd fo tge. Evne ryuo ofr eelf eprks syaer mte nh'vtea even was dan twhi gte ,gltei otw irfned htat t'dndi ubt dditn' eb it uoy ssrirepud nda doyu' atth nay t,ey codidseenr esbt a ilgr. Adn abuekrp khcit dna vene nit,h apst 2 lamfyi sprupeotd hre erh uyo hutohrg h,etsda. Geigwhin erh to sthnmo rsgdlgute of yruo uyo, eth nad ofr snco dnhierfspi eglefnsi irucnntea hes oyu orps rkisign so hnew csonsdefe fro smihnetgo. Ot eiedcdd eavbr ,veol yuo og in htiw ti os eb ewer and uyo but. Nycurto fomr buparek ot dya reh uyo on app esh b,tw uyo p,tso ni eaid itaw oshw uoy her ngkami 1/2 mepdud utsj iilnafruma ared fionreg gnwro stone dan yuo rakeb up iwth amed 1 a nad omem adn cyit retfa teh up. I eadht 'thtas gfal nowk dre i trhees her a t,wb wonk. Raec btu oyu imet het chmu oot caerd her ot abuto at. Odafwrr oknilgo indf 'evi tbu ndeo a eagihln ot psat tberet tol iths oevl i'm yrae, of. Luaelytevn treeh etg wle'l. .
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Im' uciej btu nrigdnik not nemyr!ao hpace aclluyat i idd a uby. .

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