A letter from Mar 29, 2023

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, hi! this is 21 year old you. firstly i hope you’re doing well. right now it is 12:14am and i just watched a tiktok about writing a future letter. today i finally turned in my resignation letter! of course the boss called and spewed a bunch of bs to make me stay but im feeling mostly relieved that im almost out of there and onto a new chapter in life. you know ur girl is in her broke ***** era but im gonna make it work. this is the first time since i was a teenager that im not going to have a full time job and im sure you will remember how useless and lowkey stressed im feeling right now. what job did you end up getting? did you get to take swimming classes? how was starting acupuncture school? how is esther doing? im like 99.99% sure ur little sister is still the center of your life because you love her so much. i hope ur in ur hot girl era right now. im making a guess that our hair is finally long again and that makes me happy. you better not have gotten an undercut again for the third time, because you know growing that out will be a DISASTER. hey. u better go on vacation this year. or if you’re really too busy it better be soon. stop treating yourself like ****. remember u said xcaret. if not at least some tropical place please. how are mom and dad? im hoping ur at least smart enough to read pulse and help mom do some cupping now, or else im sure you’ll feel like a useless piece of ****. as much as i hate to admit it i think by today you probably have almost completely forgiven mom and dad. and i think that’s good. I don’t blame them for any trauma, i just hope we’re strong enough to take care of them now. did u get a girlfriend at all? although im currently opposing the idea of a relationship i know that you still wish for someone to connect and care for you. i hope that there’s someone to tolerate your situation and love you for who you are. im pretty sure you’re still unable to come out, but it’s okay. I’m sure we’re getting there soon. don’t get brainwashed back to homophobia christianity gurl. I’d hate you for it if u do. buy a bottle of soju and cheers yourself today! us making it through is worth celebrating. i love you so much and i look forward to the you im becoming. 🤍

Epilogue

about 21 hours later

hey 21 year old me,

funny thing is i completely forgot this letter existed. i know there's another one i wrote a while ago though, that one seems to stick...

On my indm. I eht aeymb ti tegs reeivdled rebeemrm yb mtie o'wtn. .
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,at 2 ddene eht acbk i ngiog ew eysdat up dan ot raeys rfo ntorhae lhteo rthee kdrwoe. Is na enth qtui time ie'dtnsst fce,ifo i to medov osp ttah of a austolbe tsrwo dan ym at eon kwinrgo hits leif bw,t nsttied. Sierttdyn yllrae to eidnrotic em esmo peploe hte do i utb at it dtinepo ni eunngie tem dan ont rigth - aetls. .
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Si ebne rveen gdino nda i've roem etersh eartg rpudo. Ot teh eyvre hse eessm ni tebtre nvieros of be ayw su. Of diesrnf a dna lost esh ta geatr si dame ,nwo usc. Laos swrorecok tiellt her lal sah esh a er,h amed ovle rheew rheet eifnsrd rpta eimt jbo adn. To and yuo tanw whti ielf, pyhap aiienmg cyr mkeas hes telsl wihhc can me cnnetot me tath ryve hss'e. .
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Lilnafy hiar aclutayl my sitwa sit' a ptas illett yerv si lgon ym gn,aia logn. Aws wonggir out woh bad reeemmrb atth eudturcn i ti. Veern iaang. Gadl is g,anai to lectreyn nde nto vie' eb up 'ntod adn i skctu btu aerh ygidn it ym dyu'o rahi idk to ryleal gdion hlgit pheo blue thta tmitgenp me. Eebfro ot yloo nad pexii ,30 og laspn aevh hrgti? im ctu i zbzu.
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2 'itdnd hosloc ptas atsl rsestmese nrpcuuutaec. Fro psarten no eaidrlze psuoptr dna nwo iursteyc whuttoi no i clyabsail my nya to tnw'o tiwh yrlaead 05k meltascssa boj cinslic aingpy all kwor my that cmpoedra ihwt. Asrmgrop enod my a peerqrs and tnwe hetc ogt yngiehe lnetda cc ot i akbc orf rda dna. Srtta aceedtpc nda sutj in be rfo egotnt ejnu haer thta rmopagr adh gdla a i u'ydo ot. Is hte ni ayilfnl it hrigt itr?gh toiedrinc ielf semes elik oging. .
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Meht teak adnlere who idd mwis csa!lsse ot year inafyll gismwmin slta nad i koot i. Utfrue hte waann kcba in lnear og i rmeo dan. For to wo,n ayr,e aycva ckba ofr dda tog ceracn eanndlp hican wthi tihs go jtus had ubt nctpcaeair on ot adndegsoi i tcxrae. I'm meintoso eno fro teh rgscsnpieo tath tslli. So on tsih cinoatva ayre. .
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Yas, i fgrvieon 'vie ylemcletpo no nyunf atht n'tod uoy hktni. No'td ihnkt hte ,sdreae stuj rumtaa stedepi eb nac etim i. Meos eb withni teh taps fhrioride dyo'u aesry cntasesin to 3 anelr. My utc nay f,fo grtih tbu my ti si nstepar me oelpep otps i fo ot duclo uoy i'st nad ni lelt uwodl hwo it tllmpcoeye nwko neionl. Aevh truuef skic rhes'te a 'ddas lpbseiso fo i yvre won heewr to mmo ecra ,ainag taht atek. . . Insgarc its' em nda. Bene ywh me onw iev' undbo ot is it ot teh weohl htat itrngy ifle escepa ym nrseop is. . . . .
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'oyud eb durpiessr heay. . . Idd i kind a of rlfinrgied etg. Nad irgl efle tow dan nay sryea rkeps uoyr egt veen btse i'tdnd ti 'dtdin a srpudeisr ceedsnirod fro ,ety aws yuo 'htvaen vene t,gile udo'y ttah whit utb htat be mte dfiren. Famyil nvee 2 s,ehtda nad atps tn,hi ebprkua reh teurpdspo and her ickth ugthhor yuo. Inihwgeg riinksg os rof thosnm she tgerglusd ofr dan escesfndo eht ehnw mtegsnhio lsnegefi efpnhriids itrncuane to rosp of uyo oyur cons rhe yu,o. Be to edddeic o,lev you earbv ni so tub oyu go dna wtih ewer it. T,wb 1/2 eabrk uyo mdae so,tp erh ouy igonref yuo iunlaafrmi brkeupa etnso dna aretf ehr dera rconytu tiwa nmgaik jstu memo pu uyo eht nda worgn no edpumd ayd ot a in app mfro diea ctyi up hes thiw dna 1 wohs. Der nowk a wbt, 'thsat flag i rseeht htade nkwo erh i. Her hcmu at ouy raec oto creda tbu to het mtie botua. Raey, htis tetebr im' tbu inhgael 'vei lkgonio veol aodrfwr fo lot a infd edno tpsa to. Vltneyleua ehrte etg wl'el. .
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Btu nra!omey juiec a tno i idd knrgndii lyutalca im' cehpa byu. .

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