A letter from Mar 29, 2023

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, hi! this is 21 year old you. firstly i hope you’re doing well. right now it is 12:14am and i just watched a tiktok about writing a future letter. today i finally turned in my resignation letter! of course the boss called and spewed a bunch of bs to make me stay but im feeling mostly relieved that im almost out of there and onto a new chapter in life. you know ur girl is in her broke ***** era but im gonna make it work. this is the first time since i was a teenager that im not going to have a full time job and im sure you will remember how useless and lowkey stressed im feeling right now. what job did you end up getting? did you get to take swimming classes? how was starting acupuncture school? how is esther doing? im like 99.99% sure ur little sister is still the center of your life because you love her so much. i hope ur in ur hot girl era right now. im making a guess that our hair is finally long again and that makes me happy. you better not have gotten an undercut again for the third time, because you know growing that out will be a DISASTER. hey. u better go on vacation this year. or if you’re really too busy it better be soon. stop treating yourself like ****. remember u said xcaret. if not at least some tropical place please. how are mom and dad? im hoping ur at least smart enough to read pulse and help mom do some cupping now, or else im sure you’ll feel like a useless piece of ****. as much as i hate to admit it i think by today you probably have almost completely forgiven mom and dad. and i think that’s good. I don’t blame them for any trauma, i just hope we’re strong enough to take care of them now. did u get a girlfriend at all? although im currently opposing the idea of a relationship i know that you still wish for someone to connect and care for you. i hope that there’s someone to tolerate your situation and love you for who you are. im pretty sure you’re still unable to come out, but it’s okay. I’m sure we’re getting there soon. don’t get brainwashed back to homophobia christianity gurl. I’d hate you for it if u do. buy a bottle of soju and cheers yourself today! us making it through is worth celebrating. i love you so much and i look forward to the you im becoming. 🤍

Epilogue

about 21 hours later

hey 21 year old me,

funny thing is i completely forgot this letter existed. i know there's another one i wrote a while ago though, that one seems to stick...

On midn ym. Remmbeer gest the i byaem by edvelride ti otw'n teim. .
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Teohl 2 het i ggino rhtee yasre kdoewr kbca for roetnha t,a adn ew to dteyas edend pu. ,twb utqi torws lubastoe ofiecf, vomde nriwogk na i this my fo pso hetn etmi oen ta is eilf a dnsttise' htat ntisdet dan ot. Emt hte eiidrtnoc it rithg peoepl em i tub - ni ningeue ttidrnsey to adn nto esalt at ptednoi emso lyrale do. .
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Adn v'ie evner enbe garet rudop is rshete oerm doing. Msese revey su to eht nvisore hes of eb in ywa eetrtb. ,wno oslt amde csu aergt ehs of inrfdes at a nad si. Ash herew jbo ietm nsridfe ehr ecrsorkow etlitl slao elov he,r lal made she a dna herte rtpa. Cna nda cyr me you to tnentco hse hwhci fi,el hwit mieniga me thta wtna skmea sh'es tslel eyrv yppah. .
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Ym ogln hari ognl a ctaaully flinlay iang,a is ietltl vyre wasit my si't ptsa. Was out who utednucr bad ttha eemebmrr girowgn it i. Giaan envre. Nyidg heop 'udyo si me ym onidg reah ot nda glda vei' tub kutcs tno bleu ,gnaai ot 'otnd be entrcley ihra imgtpnte ti up atht tghli ylreal dki i edn. Obreef go dna iipex eahv i ,03 yolo ot cut lpsan zuzb iht?rg mi.
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Cosolh 2 utccneuarpu 'ndidt alts rmeesstes astp. My caslmtases to albicslay ctiersuy nad kwor on ym all wiht any to'nw araldye ofr onw nstpera aigpny cclsnii ttowhiu no obj rptuspo thwi dcmraoep atht i k05 lrieedaz. Ot edon ogt dra cc wten hcet engheyi sprereq ckba nad ofr adtnle a nad opramrsg my i. Fro ctcdeaep nda i be dah u'ydo trsta htat ustj gadl hrea eunj ni a getton raprgom ot. Oggin lyalinf klie it tedncorii itgrh esmes is teh in ielf h?gitr. .
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Wsim how enrelda raye ot and tsal as!elcss koot i hemt keat i lniyfla ddi igmnswim. I uterfu the lerna ni bcka omer dna aanwn go. Sinoeaddg caxtre e,ray dad sjut ahd nednalp ot otg hcain cepcnatria arencc og rof rfo siht on i vayac ot tbu nwo, cbak wiht. Spnieosrcg eth eno im' fro oinmesot tlsli htta. Anvtcioa so no yera tshi. .
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Ahtt tnkih i lpeoltmyce nyfun no yas, ouy dot'n frvioeng ei'v. Acn ihtkn nt'od juts imte diepets hte be e,seadr i arumat. Anler atsp ithnwi 3 yod'u refhoidir eb erays to setcinnas smeo teh. Si it wloud gihrt but ot luocd nya ni oknw neloni woh lppeeo i uct eltl nda me it's ym psot oyu raestpn yelelotpcm ,ffo fo ti ym. Icks hreew possileb a omm veah re'seth freutu nwo acer evyr to ttha fo eakt i ig,ana ds'da. . . Igsanrc 'sit em dna. Whoel epeasc ot enrosp the vie' me atht ielf gtrniy si eneb to si wyh undob my it nwo. . . . .
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Eb do'uy rirsedpsu aehy. . . Dnki etg ddi i a fo rfigirelnd. Yt,e u'dyo oyur yuo sperursdi syera ae'htvn it dan ilgr neev dti'dn tub hatt rdfnei whti saw rof and enev prkse tseb wot nay elfe dnesercoid a htat nid'dt be teg emt et,gli. Ts,hade popetrdus and 2 ouy ,hint kbupaer ehr vnee ehr psta ughroth hctik dan ymailf. Ihnggiew ofr ncos eth elgsdurgt when ot stiogehmn smnoht uyo ehs genlsfei uyro adn scfeneosd y,uo erfhdnpisi ksingir os for nucitaenr fo ospr her. So dna ubt it vrbae hwit deieddc ot rwee in ,levo eb og yuo uyo. Hre pu esotn yad eida a pu ouy the oyu ycit jtsu tiaw and oyu rmfo omem in s,pto dear to 21/ htwi nagkim 1 yonctru hes dmea ownrg oyu nda ehr auerbkp brkea app whso alnrfiumai no ftrae dpuemd nad bt,w giforne. Oknw der i agfl tshree etadh tta'sh ,twb wnok i a erh. Tuabo teh oto dcrae itme to btu ecra ehr oyu at cmhu. Fo inlogko leainhg ot i'm idfn ertbte ive' siht a drfraow ary,e veol stpa tlo oend tub. Ll'ew egt ereht eetlunyval. .
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Tlycaaul haepc cjieu ddi ro!eamny a otn im' i btu uyb grinnkdi. .

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