A letter from Mar 27, 2023

Dear FutureMe, um im in my texts and critics class rn. we are either writing letters to our past selves or future selves or future kids or something. I feel like I've written so much apologizing to my past self so i doing future self. um idk what to really write about, I've been feeling a lot recently. Its my first year here, i like it i really do, i love my friends here. but i miss home a lot too, i miss work especially. Idk lance visiting has made me realize i got the fresh start i needed here. like my friends here respect me in a way that i don't think back home they did. i expect more from myself now, but i think that's for the best. I'm really proud of myself for figuring out ways to study and do homework. I have struggled a bit this semester with motivation but i think I'm figuring it all out. I just need to make time to do the things that make me happy. give myself enough time to go outside go skiing etc. I think this is gonna be my last summer at bobos, I'm nervous about starting another job, but i hope it'll be just as fun. I just don't feel quite ready to let that part of my life go. I think that's why it's the thing i miss the most about home, the person i was at work is like the person I'm growing into here. I'm proud of myself for being a lot more confident here. okay, this is cheesy but here are some things i tend to forget so I'm gonna remind you, you're doing okay you are worthy of love it's okay to not have everything figured out right now if nothing matters why would you not do what makes you happy you don't have to be some prodigy I know i have set so many goals for you and i understand if you haven't mastered all of them but i hope you have completed the ones that make you happy. i really hope you've figured out better than me how to be happy. i think people who are so happy just become content with where their life is at and i think there's so much ahead of me that i can't be content with where i am at now. i hope you still write sometimes, i think that helps romanticize your life a little bit more. don't forget to do that either, romanticize every moment cuz you never know which moment becomes the best memory. Alright, i hope your life is super cool and epic and swag now! Love, me lol!