A letter from Mar 17, 2023

Dear FutureMe, oh my gooodness! I don’t even know how to start this letter! Life is great, future me! I have so many things to say, things that I’m grateful for, and things that I’m looking forward to. I know this is not how we imagined it to be. In fact, it is better than the life we thought we’d have. I can’t believe we’re turning 20 this year. We’re no longer kids. Life seems so serious now and no more playing games. Life goes by so fast. I want to tell you that I’m enraptured at this very moment. We’re finally experiencing the joy that our one and only true God Jehovah gives. We are enjoying the field service and our ministry. We became a regular pioneer this year! Isn’t that amazing? I’m over the clouds whenever I think about it. The day we got baptised was a day worth celebrating too! Ngl, it was not a very emotional day because our brothers and sisters were only watching us dip into the water via zoom only. I couldn’t truly feel the joy that that day brings. I thought it would have been better if the brothers and sisters were there to witness us raise up from the water and congratulate us with there big bright smiles and teary eyes. Nonetheless, it was a day I’m very grateful for. But Can you imagine the galloons of tears we would have shed though if we were baptised in front of hundreds of brothers and sisters? haha! what a sight to see. Whenever the baptism talk in our circuit assemblies starts, I always imagine myself sitting there together with the baptism candidates. I’d imagine myself walking out of the assembly hall with them. That electric feeling would travel through my knees and between their tendons as my joy overflows and embed its spark throughout the entire floor. Everyone would look at us with hopeful eyes saying “We’re proud of you! You made the best decision in your life.” This is how Jehovah shows me how happy He is for my decision. I’d cry with every eye contact I’d land on; my happy tears. Everyone would rush out to see the precious moment and I know for a fact that I’d cry for a little while after getting out of the water. That’s the amount of happiness I feel. So much that it would force itself out through handshakes, long hugs, and more crying. We are part of the LDCV now too! There are so many spiritual blessings that Jehovah God gave us after we got baptised. I feel like crying every time I think about it. Jehovah saw us struggling spiritually so He gave us our loving sisters and brothers from our congregation and from other congregations. They helped us a lot, especially ate Shullamite! We may not be very close to her now, but her good example helped us through this learning journey. There are so many brothers and sister with that are good examples. We got closer to the other young adults in other congregations too. I now understand what ate Shu said. She said there’s no greater happiness than meeting and talking to our brothers and sisters about our love for Jehovah. Jehovah’s organisation is truly a blessing that we could never exchange for anything. I am truly happy, future me. I really am. and it’s all thanks to Jehovah God. I learned so many things about myself these days. I really want to get married someday. I want to worship Jehovah with someone that I love, with someone that I can rely on, with someone I can trust, and with someone that shares the same goal that I have, to become someone who Jehovah God is proud of and to serve Jehovah whole heartedly. I want to reach more spiritual goals together with this person. Finding this person is indeed difficult. Although I have this plan in mind, I learned how important it is to be contented of being single. This is a time in my life when I get to explore parts of myself that I didn’t know. This is the part where I need to learn more about myself and to further strengthen my love and faith to Jehovah. My future husband can wait haha! For now, I need to work on my weaknesses and my strengths so that when the time is right, I can face him with a bright smile and give him the assurance that he will never regret his decision of worshipping Jehovah together with me. I’m not sure what the future awaits but as long as Jehovah is with me, I know everything will be alright.