A letter from Mar 16, 2023

Dear FutureMe, So you are 21 now, legally you can enter a bar in the US. Does that really matter? I don't know, unless you decided to move to America. Not judging by the way just very confused as to why you would even consider it in the first place. I'd imagine you still living in France or moving to the UK, or Canada? Might as well say New Zealand. Anything but America, we both know that place sucks. Perhaps you moved to Australia, in Perth? Like the insane person that you are? There's spider literally everywhere there , you'd be screaming everytime at the tiniest one (a tiny spider in Australia would probably be the size of my hand so it's understandable if you're scared). Maybe you didn't even move to an english speaking country, maybe you moved to Sweden, or Denmark, or Germany, or Switzerland, or Belgium. In my most humble of opinions I think you should move to the UK, yeah it sucks but all your friends live there. It's okay if you didn't I won't be mad. How's life going? Do you finally have a long-term girlfriend? Stable job? Nice house? Kids maybe? Do you look very different from when you were my age or did you decide to stop rebelling? Either way I'll be glad to know if you are still alive. Mentally I'm struggling, I'm pretty sure I've got BPD and I might be autistic too, I'm looking for a psychiatrist but the wait is long, I'm hoping you got diagnosed and medicated because it is really hard for me at the moment. Speaking of girlfriend, is she your girlfriend? Right now I feel like things are stale between me and her, she's giving me mixed signals and it feels a bit too much like what I had with that other person (you know the one), but she does eventually respond, she's got college and alot of missing assignements. I'm hoping the future is in my favour and we do end up together. Maybe it'll take some time and multiple tries but as long as you're happy with her that's all that counts. She's very pretty and quite interesting. I'm excepting you guys to have moved in together if she is your long term partner now. Also, speaking of you-know-who, did you finally block her? I mean, she wasn't exactly the best person to socialize with, only wanting me when others weren't around, ignoring me when they were. If you guys are still friends how is she doing? How does she look? I really hope she's changed if you didn't remove her from your life. She's drained me emotionally, she's really not the best for you. I'm really hoping you chose the blocking option, even if it didn't please her. Either way she probably doesn't care. Did you finish your book? Was the process long? Is it a best-seller? Did it get adapted? Honestly if it did, I would argue that Elijah will be the fan favourite. I mean, he's your favourite too. It would be so cool if it got adapted into a show, I'm hoping HBO picked it up, you know how Netflix treats book to movie adaptations. Did the book win any awards? Is your book considered pop-culture now? Did your show win an emmy? Ok but what if it wasn't adapted into a show? what if it was a movie franchise? That would be very awesome. I'm hoping it won some awards, oscars maybe? It's a bit over the top but one can only dream. Does the general public consider your work a masterpiece of literature and film? You still have alot to work on writing wise, especially the fact that you overly-describe things and rely alot on dialogue, but it's fixable nobody is perfect, unless your name is Mia Goth (this would be very embarrassing if she turned out to be problematic or died, not wishing for any of that to happen though). How bad is your fandom? Are they problematic? Are they chill? They haven't sent you ***** threats over a characters ***** have they? If they did I probably know which one, It's inevitable, it is guaranteed to happen if you publish those books. How's you bartending career? Did you climb up the ranks? Become a bar owner? What's you favourite cocktail? Favourite regular? Favourite co-worker? Favourite day of the week on your schedule? Favourite higher-up if you've got any? Do you get paid well enough to pay rent and still afford nice things? How many bars did you go through until you found the right one? How long have you been working there? Did you get into that apprenticeship thing by the way? Are your classmates nice? I'm hoping they are. How's the vynil collection? still small or did you add to it? I'm hoping you bought an Audiotechnica and not some whacky suitcase turntable. I'm guessing you got the PS5 too and some cool games. I already have the switch just need a playstation now. Can't exactly play DBH or TLOU on a switch now can I? Did you buy those super cool Sony headphones? the WH-1000mx4's? are they as good as everyone says they are? Do you use them all the time? I know you probably bought some airpods too because I know you don't like laying on your side in bed with headphones on. If you bought airpods it's only fair that you also bought yourself an iPhone. Did you you get the money Dad owes you? For all the **** he's put you through? I know you haven't talked to him and never will, that is one thing I know you would never do. He might aswell rot and die, I know for a cold hard fact that you wouldn't show up to his funeral if someone paid you billions to attend. It's what he deserves. He's a piece of **** anyway. Anyways, that's enough questions. Happy 21st Birthday! I love you and care about you and will support you in whatever decisions you decide to make. Enjoy your 20's dumbass :) Love, Your 18 year old self. P.S: Drink with moderation!