A letter from Mar 14, 2023

Dear FutureMe, After completion of my degree within 3 months time i got a job offer purely due to hard work, but then like always happiness has a short span in my life. I lost my job, I took that positively and I never gave up. I kept trying for other oppertunities but nothing is working out for me. I came home thinking I could have some peace, I came home wanting to kiss and cuddle with my cat Mija infact i just came home to attend funeral. One my cat's and the other my granny's. One thing that kept me sane in this house, my cat was taken from my life. All along on the journey back home I could only think of spending time with my cat, but came home just to lean that he is no more. It's been 4 months, I'm still not over him. My life has been a series of misfortune. Imagine being a disappointment for the person you love the most, you barely can bare it. I love my Dad so much, no amount of words can explain the love i have for him. I am a burden as well as a dissappointment to him. I promised a better old age and many other things for him but nothing came true, but he still have hopes on me, like how does he do that, what bright side does he see in me I wonder. In movies and stories no matter how hard a faliure fails he always has a happy ending, I know life ain't like movies or stories but don't i deserve even a slightest bit of happniess for what life has offerd me ? It's like my own life is telling me to give up, I'm trying not to give up, how long do you think i can hold on ?? like everybody says, is there anything the future is holding up for me? or am I a faliure there too? It's been 4 months, God knows I have tired, I am a big Faliure.