1 year before

Dear FutureMe, i have known scatty for maore than half a year, and half a year ago, i wrote an article, concerning about my bitter first love, because my first love fooled me... she came into my life, and encouraged me a lot last week, i met her in wuhan had about 32 hours together i can still remember the feeling of her tongue deep in my mouth, her teeth on my breast, her hair... though she is not the kind i like in appearence, but the most important factor attracting me is her deep mind she loves me, she cares about me i have no idea whether we would be together or not but i would like to hold her hands till my life ends having 2 children, one boy, one girl honestly say, i didn't take her virginity, coz she is afraid to be a woman, that hurts, and if virginity lost once, it could not be gained any more but i lost virginity, she blowed me...and swallowed something, a little salty, she said it's our first time for both of us and i regreted that i sleeped that night, too tired, if one more chance, i would not sleep that night, i would hug her tightly, and feel her all night long when i left her in wuhan, standing lonely along the beach, i could not help crying, the one, who i kissed, touched, huged is not with me angain, so lonely, so bitterly i got no idea whether i would still have this feeling on year later man is a changing animal, am i? let's see