A letter from Mar 08, 2023

3/8/2023 Dear Future Diana, You must remember how strong and powerful you are — because YOU ARE! You hold ✨MAGIC✨ in your soul. In your 33 years of life, you have learned that not everything is personal or your business and life is short. Too short to spend it hating yourself (or others), too short to worry about what others think or say about you, too short to be scared, too short to not get up and try again after you fall. Up to today, you have achieved a stable career with a steady income, which is something you wanted when you didn't have it and were struggling to make ends meet. You have achieved confidence in your power to overcome pain and grow from it. You have achieved a better understanding of your trauma and resilience. You have achieved the courage to ask for help in your deepest pain and have started to do the work toward healing it. You have achieved to unsubscribe from the toxic ideologies that were passed on to you to build a kinder more inclusive tomorrow. You have achieved the fury to set boundaries that align with the life you are trying to build - and you have done that boldly! YOU DID THAT!! Are you happy? — I know this is such a hard question for you today because it was the last thing your grandma✝ asked you when in hospice a few months ago, and you lied to her and said you were. Theoretically, you have everything one should need to be happy, yet you are not. Most days you feel like you are getting closer to living an authentic life tailored for you - but it feels like you have a long way to go & a lot of fears to let go of. Forgive more, let go more. You try your very best to always support the things that truly move you but you could improve in that area and be more intentional with your time and efforts. Stop sweating the small stuff and LIVE. Be bolder, be louder, and be unapologetically YOU! You have spent a great portion of the past year working on repairing your relationship with yourself, with food & alcohol, and with movement that brings you joy– however, this specific area needs more intention. You need to rediscover 'happy' in movement. Your therapist, Syd, and best friend, Manu, played a huge role in this progress (and your fur baby Ollie). Especially on this last trip to NYC (Feb. 2023), Manu helped you navigate and break through a major event weighing heavily on your soul and for that, you are eternally grateful (you should tell him more often). Be more intentional with your friendships and time. Travel more. GET OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE MORE OFTEN! Don't be scared to love again! I know you've been hurt so many times, but that was not your fault— those partners were simply not ready for your magic and you were not ready to recognize and share that magic. It's okay, you are ready now. Someone will show up soon who will make your magic stronger and brighter. Someone who also has beautiful magic in them to share with you. For now, all you have to do is keep healing and preparing to recognize it when it shows up, embrace it when it's good, and accept it wholly into your life. YOU GOT THIS! I love you SO MUCH! xoxo, Past Diana -♡- (ZD Letter to Your Future Self Activity - International Women's Day Celebration)