A letter from Mar 01, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I got this 3 years after it was written and it was a sobering experience. It reads so cliche, but I think that was all I could use at the time. But I can also recall how I felt when it was written, and reminded me of the severity of that time. I want this to be a regular reminder for you to be grateful for how you are now. I could imagine nothing worse than that state I was in. I am happy now and it all seems so far away, a levels are nearly here and I’m planning my summer away. All the best Blythe 01.03.2020 Dear FutureMe, Hi, I’m sorry I wasn’t meant to write depressing **** to you because I only want you to be happy. Right now things are pretty **** I can’t look at my reflection or the picture of me and Pia. I want to cry so badly but I can’t. I just have this awful hollow feeling where nothing I do matters. I feel I need something but I don’t no what and I have no will to get it even if I knew. I hardly can he bothered to write this letter, I hoped it would make me finally cry and let it go but now I just feel more constrained. I can’t be bothered to live or die. I want help but I don’t no how to ask or what I need help with. The thing is I always get depressed over the weekends when there’s no one around. You are the only one that can help yourself and me