A letter from Feb 19, 2023

Dear FutureMe, i already wrote one of these a year ago and everything changed in a bad way i’m writing this one more time to see how my life turns out i really hope that i either fall for someone that loves me as much as i love them or i find a way to be happy w myself i’ll be okay w either tbh but recently we have brayan back into our life it’s not the same tho maybe it’s because we took time apart he doesn’t feel the same anymore i still like him but i can’t force him to be in my life if he doesn’t want too but i hope that we get our bond back and if we don’t then i hope he accomplishes everything that he wants in life w soccer his grades and family, the last note i wrote also was asking about coty and i didn’t want to include him in this one but i think i have to, did coty finally give you the apology you deserve not just meaningless essays of words saying he’s sorry just for him to hurt me worse but a short actual apology that he means or will he have to go through the same pain he put you through for him to realize that it was not okay what he did but anyways r we still close w lorena or did we loose her too like we lost amiah and xzavier anyways that’s it for now and if you are reading this then does this means you made it through alll the pain and hurt and actually r happy and not just miserable all the time i really hope you made it and went above and beyond and your living your life the happiest w no worries and willing to take risks in love w out having to worry about someone putting you through the same pain again but it’s okay if you haven’t it’s okay if you gave up because i know it’s not your fault and i know that you tried your very hardest i can’t say i love you necessarily because i still just don’t love myself but i hope you do love yourself