A letter from Feb 18, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Are you still alive?? How are you doing?? Have you been selected for any medical college or are you still struggling?? Egh I hope you are at least happy with whatever you are doing now. When I was writing this letter to you, I was at my lowest, blundering everything. I hope you have found your dream of all these years. Please stay happy. You are much better than present me. I wish I could ever meet you and see how healed you would be at that point as the present and past were harsh on me and I am still coping with the failure and disappointment. I wish all this struggle proves the greatest learning for me. I hope you do not regret any of my decisions in the future. I hope you are all happy and successful with everything you ever dreamt of. Please do not cry and stay strong life as you always did. You deserve the whole world. Have you started reading books?? Did you get the Ipad?? Are you still obsessed with k-dramas and BTS ?? Where are you exactly ?? What happened after the exam?? Have you applied for the Korean scholarship or was I rejected?? Am I still stuck with life and success?? Are we still in this old house?? How is your mother doing?? Is she still disappointed ?? Do you still lie to people about your studies?? Are you still surrounded by people who call you Arjun?? Do they take good care of you?? Or they left?? What are they doing right now?? What is Afflah doing?? How about zarnain?? Do you still avoid people and wear masks all the time?? Are you still disillusioned about your looks? Do people still blame you for not being enough or good enough to get selected in the first year?? Do you still worry about your future?? Please know wherever you are that you had done your best to reach there. Every day was suffocating and tiring and it seemed that I couldn't survive. I am happy to see where we have reached. please stay safe and work hard as you need to prove to everyone that you are useful and worthy of everything. Your past self 18 feb 2023