A letter from Feb 16, 2023

Dear FutureMe, As I'm writing this letter it is the 16th of February, 2023. I'm 16 years old but as you are reading this you are 20. I wonder if you remember writing this and had thought about it all these years, but if forgotten I hope you remember a glimpse now. It is currently February half term, we are half-way through year 12 and, ay dios, what a half a year it has been. You picked your three a-levels, dropped all three of those a-levels, attempted suicide, Dad moved out, you dropped another a-level, finished we will rock you and now you're here, wondering if all your dreams will come true. And, I hope they do. I hope you know that things will always turn out okay in the end. We will be okay. You were at the lowest of the lows this year, but hey, when you hit rock bottom the only way is up right? I think I'm happy. Like, genuinely happy. I'm enjoying school at the moment. I really am. I don't spend every second wishing I were anywhere else, it's just fine and if anything quite fun. I hope that within the 3 years between sending and receiving this letter a few things have changed. I hope our a-levels went well and if I'm right we should be on our gap year? I mean the dream is to be somewhere in Italy right now, but we could have started university that year instead, or stayed in at home (oh I really hope not), but I'm sure whatever happened was right for us at the time. Do you still like art? Books, paintings, poetry, the lot of it? Is art history still the plan? I really hope so, it seems so amazing and cool, and I do think it could be the thing I spend my life doing. When was the last time you went to the theatre? The joy that used to bring us... Oh, happy birthday by the way! Please enjoy it. I've always imagined my 20's would be when I really found myself, spent everyday doing things that make me happy, oh please do enjoy it, you've been waiting for so long! I'll leave it here, but if u need reminders of who you are (atleast who I think you'll be right now in this moment), our 2023 journal is the place to look. Con amor, siempre