A letter from Feb 15, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hey girl hey I got into a fight w Christian today. Surprising right. I feel like I have to do all this fighting by myself. But I’ll be okay. I always make sure I’m okay. Because no one else will. Kaylen cut me off because of my depressing but self love episode. Christian is upset because I finally told him I’m still hurt over Desmond. It comes and goes but yeah. There’s still hurt that lingers and he doesn’t understand that’s why I’m so numb to him. I feel like I can’t really truly and fully love anybody else until I heal from that or atleastfind someone that connects with me to understand how it feels or what’s going through. I lost my grandpa the same week I got cheated on. I just realized tho, I did meet this lady who went through something similar. All this to say if a partner can’t at,east support you through your healing stages but can be there when you’re all happy to lucky then maybe that’s really the final straw they shouldn’t be with you. I love you and care for you so much. Im happy you’re taking this path alone after this. I know it’s hard but you get through this. I know you’ll find peace and comfort in the right arms. I love you and everything will be okay. He tried but sometimes we miss. We can’t see the one we love because they weren’t meant to be our loves. I know everything will work itself out and through into a mist of cruise 🤍 I love you, SD