you better be fucking out!!!!

Dear FutureMe, i dont know how many times i have wriiten futureme letters to myself that are about sexuality and coming out, but i know its a lot.but i havent gotten any of them back yet. which i guess is a good thing because ihavent done anything and if i got all those hopeful and scared emails i would just feel like more of a coward than i already do. i had a dream a week or two ago that i went back in time and i saw my self at the age of ten. and i thought maybe i would tell her that when she grows up she will realize that she likes girls and see what she said. but before i could even say anything, she knew what iwas going to say and she turned her back. she wouldnt talk to me and then she got angry and told me i was being a coward, that i just get myself all upset and then use that as an excuse not to act. i was totally dumbfounded, that i had been told off by my younger self and i felt so ashamed.. so wherever you are when you get this, you etter have come out and moved on with your life and dont you dare come back to haunt me in my dreams. cause i am going to take charge soon love catherine