A letter from Feb 03, 2023

Dear FutureMe, hows life? hope u dont die yet. im so tired rn. just got interviewed by HR this evening. what an annoying *** woman. tell me u dont work in this ****** company anymore or im gonna jump off this train rn💀 u dont deserve any better, i know u know that but ffs working in this company could lessen 10 years of your life, i mean i know ure suicidal but dying bc this job?? meh hell nah. when u open this you prolly in ur 25 or 26, please please please make me happy by having >umr paycheck in ur account IM BEGGING. u dont plan to be poor all ur life right? u got one parent and one younger brother to be fed and tell me ure done with these ******* pinjols bc ***** im depressed and broke rn and all of this bcs of those *******. sigh. dont need any romance remember that, money, give me money *****. dont ******* waste my adulthood with those nonsense. we need money to live and love and eat. i love you, u know? i hate you ofc but i also love you as much as the problems in my life, itll never stop. even if ure not worthy enough for others, ure still all i need, the only one i can lean on, the only person who really understand me and always stay by my side. and i hope it stays that way, be patient with me untill god say 'thats enough' himself. and keep fearing the ***** and afterlife *****, you got too many bad deeds, dont make god tired of you and leave you all alone with the devil smh. sincerely tired and broken, yourself.